"Conservative Christians" for voting as they have
people should NOT get married, because the model of relationship is
about the Gay Marriage battle!
recognizes the upsidedown book on MSNBC
the story of the dramatic and wonderful moment in Toby's life when it
all made sense.
What Jesus said about the cause of homosexuality
about gay rights
What the Bible
Says about Homosexuality
Homosexuality is a
sin because most people don't have to worry about committing it.
of Homosexuality in human culture and evolution of consciousness.
What is homosexuality in metaphysical
Toby Johnson and Joe Perez both
discuss The Two Loves:
duality for its other half, unity
for its self-reflection as a meatphysical explanantion of sexual love.
Ideal for Straight Men
Why Gay Spirituality?: Spirituality as
discusses the "vibes" we may be inheriting from the lives of all those
homosexuals who lived as monks or nuns throughout history.
Toby Johnson tells of his experience as a novice "monk" at Marynook, Novitiate of
the Marianists, Galesville WI, 1963-64
Toby Johnson shares a funny, but meaningful, story from his novitiate
experience, discovering the importance of The Schedule
Is there a "uniquely gay perspective"? Read the Introduction to Toby
Johnson's book Gay Perspective
An interview about The Nature of
about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness after reading Mitch
Walker, an homage to an important gay elder
Sinfulness of homosexuality
Are you the reincarnationn of Edward
Men, Myths and
Reincarnation appeared in
The Holy Male 'zine about modernizing out notions of reincarnation.
What is reincarnation about anyway?
A whimsical proposition: Gay
Classics scholar John Boswell was a
reincarnation of philosopher Immanuel Kant
about the massacre in the gay nightclub, 2016.
world by Shokti LoveStar. Shokti--Mark
Whiting--is a Radical Faerie in London. This page has several quotes
from him and links to articles about gay consciousness.
spoken with Harry Faddis for the Quest of Life radio show and podcast. Click here for
Renault interviews Toby
Johnson about gay
spirtuality and sexuality.
Spiritual Talents & Skills discusses
qualities, talents, skills, traits that tend to go along with being gay.
Scroll down for more
the Nature of
About the Mann Ranch
experience of learning "The
of the Clear Light"
from Joseph Campbell and the real meaning of afterlife.
How to Understand
the Image of the Clear Light.
Tiger Face: Joseph Campbell's story about the great secret of life.
Nature of Religion according to Joseph Campbell. A very wise
statement from The Hero with A
Thousand Faces. (Links to The Joseph Campbell Foundation and the
Campbell Gimbutas Library and Archives at Pacifica
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Gay Men's Sexuality
Toby's article on
titled "The Evolution of Gay
the Cross and the Dark Night of the Soul."
tells the story of
at the Baths.
explains how Being
Gay is a Blessing (in an excerpt from
his book Gay Spirituality)
in the book
Judith Pastore, Confronting AIDS through Literature: Facing
the Edge: AIDS as an occasion for spiritual wisdom
Toby's life --
Buying the house from the Gadpailles & Being God on ketamine -- Two
stories about Drawing Long
idea of Freedom
of Religion reveals a deep secret
about the nature of religion and God.
Saintliness is a review of Donald Boivert's Sanctity and Male
Desire. The article contains a stirring gay positive paragraph by
de la Huerta,
Out Spiritually: The Next Step, identifies ten spiritual functions of gay and
A succinct description of the subtle
workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.
scandal" reveals truths about the
nature of homosexual consciousness and errors in Christian teaching
about sexuality that are missed when the focus is put on findng
who to blame
called "I Want
to Know Them All" by Toby's
straight hippie friend L. Houston Wood in the early 70s that appeared
in an issue of White Crane Journal about the Bodhisattva identity
piece about Adam
Steve. This essay on biblical history appeared in the Fall
2004 issue of Ashe Journal 3.3
Read about the Gay Spirituality Summit, the Gay Spirit Culture Project,
and the "Statement of Spirituality"
retirement and the "freelance monastery"
Harvey's concept of Spiritual Activism and
his new book THE HOPE
Andrew Harvey In Son of Man,
Harvey offers a Christian mysticism of sex.
Time to Grow
Up? Confronting the Aging Process—
This article appeared in The Advocate, March 1984. The central ideas
are still relevant 30 years later. Interesting discussion of how
homosexuality seems to retard aging.
published in Blueboy Magazine. It's a partly tongue-in-cheek argument
for practicing good hygiene while still relishing gay sex practices.
Precocious for 1984 and still good advice today.
article in the L.A. Weekly as part of a series for Gay Pride
2012, titled "What does it Mean to be Gay?"
as a Spiritual Path is Toby's Commentary on Bruce P.
Grether's The Secret of the Golden Phallus, a remarkable book
pleasure, arousal, and mindful masturbation.
article SPIRITUAL QUESTIONS IN GAY
COUNSELING from The Sourcebook on Lesbian/Gay Health Care
Different Take on Leathersex
features an excerpt from an Interview with Alexander Renault about a
spiritual explanation for S&M, B&D, etc.
Pornography Differently offers a very positive and enlightened way
to understand gay men's pornography.
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quest to find The Great Secret
Great Secret underlies all
religion and spirituality
Religion is the deep religious
experience that belief and
"faith" are intended to generate
account of the
in 1969 at Our Lady of Riverside Priory—Benedict Castle—that
transformed his vision of life and God.
in Riverside tells Toby's only partly
tongue-in-cheek story of being picked up hitchhiking by "God the
How to get
tells a marvelous and insightful story by French Existential playwright
Jean Anouilh: the way to get to heaven is to let the other people in
with Different Eyes: How we human beings see the
is based more on our
expectations than on what's really out there (an excerpt from In
of God in the
Straw into Gold
tells the secret of changing consciousness to change the world
(excerpted from the Introduction of Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling).
Eye is a meditation on the evocative "koan": "The eye with which I
see God is the eye with which God sees me."
Prostitution and the Nature of Evil, another excerpt from In Search
of God in the
of Toby's discovery of spiritual wisdom in the oddest of places, the
Tenderloin district of San Francisco.
and Sex The
to the book In Search of God in the Sexual Underworld about the
importance of giving spiritual meaning to sex.
in the Night,
another excerpt from In Search of God in the Sexual Underworld,
recounts Toby's experience of trying to rescue a therapy client in the
middle night--when everything goes wrong and Toby almost gets murdered.
Life is in the Blood: Toby Johnson's Biblically-based answer to
when life begins.
Commandment "Thou shalt not steal" is not a basis for private
ownership of property. The Buddhist precept "No Stealing" is about
compassion for others' feelings, not property rights.
"God is present here" -- a secret Toby learned from the Sufi
Dancing classes in San Francisco in the 1970s.
Campbell and Ken
critique of the "Pre/Trans Fallacy": Three
important themes in Campbellian thought.
article Sex with God,
Toby Johnson describes a
method for reconciling and merging sexuality and spirituality. With a
nod to Jeff Kripal.
Religion and Sex
Toby Johnson offers a simple technique for spiritualizing and expanding
Metaphor offers several salient images
for thinkjing about God: as America, as love.
Metaphors for God as music, as mystery, as
metaphor God explains how to have a personla relationship with a
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Joseph Campbell and the
from The Myth of the Great
Appreciation of Joseph Campbell titled TheTechniques
Of The World Saviors is in four parts.
Part 2: The
Part 3: Jesus and the
Part 4: A
Painting: "Christ Invests Himself
with the Very Majesty of His Universe"
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Fiction, Myth and Wisdom
Gay Souls Get Reincarnated, a cute piece, a little
tongue-in-cheek, but with
profound meaning about gay identity and gay spirit.
& Gatekeepers is about the perspective of the outsider,
wall-walker who can see both sides of the wall.
and Avalokiteshvara compares the two great World Saviors to
discover the true meaning of both.
Values, and Gay Reincarnation
Strip" as a topological image for gay consciousness.
Lewis describing "The
Great Dance" of mystical realization.
phenomenon of Alien Abduction
a car as
practice: Driving Samadhi
about Toby's inspiration
the Visitors' come from in the revised edition of
are you looking
for in a gay science fiction
gay science fiction novel ever in Toby Johnson's opinion.
ideas for gay
Marian Doctrines: The Immaculate
Conception and the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary in historic
quotation was on
the wall in
Novicemaster Office. It begins: "Man was not born to have his hands lashed to the
prayer-post" and ends: "There is no place for me in hell." It's a
wonderful lesson. (I don't know who composed it.)
Catholic, with a twist: The
Importance of Having to Church to Leave
Henry Seale about
the nature of gay spirituality, "gay separatism," and Deep
Consciousness. This page is a tribute to
Peter Grahame and Henry Seale (Henry passed away in February 2019).
Wedding Feast tells what Toby Johnson realizes
what really happened with turning water into wine.
Tonglen in the Radisson Varanasi reports on Toby's
strange experience of smelling smoke in a hotel in India.
Closet of Horrors, an excerpt from The
Fourth Quill about the nature of suffering; a remarkable mystical
for more articles
Public Library James C. Hormel Gay and Lesbian Center is
archive for gay and lesbian history. That's where our various
collections of memorabilia should be donated. Our lives are "history."
Historians offers suggestions for how to think about and study gay
life in the pre-AIDS 1970s.
of what Toby Johnson knows of gay history
he learned from his work with Toby Marotta. Marotta has a website with
gay political posters for sale and with an exhibit of gay
liberation documents called Revisiting Stonewall.
February 2017, ABC-TV ran a miniseries about gay liberation activity in
San Francisco. It as mostly centered on the life of Cleve Jones. Toby
Johnson's experience in S.F. in the 70s intersected with a numbers of
the events shown. Read Intersections
with the movie When We Rise
with Patrick McNamara, Duncan Teague,
Craig Harwood, Dave Nimmons, as well as Mark Thompson, Christian de la
Huerta, David Frechter, Michael
Sigmann, Bo Young, Dan
Vera, and others, Toby Johnson assisted with the calling of a "Gay
Spirit Summit" in
Spring 2004 at Garrison Institute. Read about the Gay
Summit and the "Statement
of Spirituality" with
from the 1981
West Coast Christopher Street Parade magazine by L.A. gay pioneer Jim
Kepner, titled The
Seach for Gay Spirit. Everything he wrote about in 1981 is still
current 30 years later in 2011.
discovered a line
of "Gay Succession"
from Walt Whitman to himself… and beyond.
You Like to Be Uranian? Toby Johnson
discusses the meaning of some of the terms used for homosexuals down
first Peace March tells
of Toby Johnson's memories to marching on Washington DC to "Levitate
the Pentagon," Oct 21, 1967
Innocently naughty story about how Toby got the first whistle in the Castro Neighborhood Whistle Campaign
Liberty Books, the Lesbian/Gay Bookstore for Austin, 1986-1996
Riots, Drag Queens, and Judy Garland's Funeral.
you) at Stonewall? The events, referred
Stonewall, have become truly mythic.
1978, Toby Johnson
monitor," stationed just below the newly-inaugurated Rainbow Flags that have come to symbolize
Toby's recollections of
San Francisco Gay Pride Marches in the 1970s
from his friend and nicknamesake Toby Marotta. Please
about their important friendship.
Activity from hunter/gatherers to modern gay lib.
Hay: Father and Founder of the modern gay movement; his thought
summarized by Will Roscoe
Evans, gay pioneer
expressions of "Gay Spirituality" showed up as the book The Divine Androgyne According to
Purusha. Earlier in his life as a gay cultural activist, under the
name Christopher Larkin, Purusha had made the gay romantic movie A
Very Natural Thing.
the New Myth,
"Spiritual, not Religious," through the Gay Window -- a panel
presentation for the 2012 Centennial of Hay's birth Conference at CLAGS
the Gay Spirituality Summit in May 2004
and the "Statement
of Spirituality" with Toby's commentary
the study of teenage
prostitution Toby Marotta and Toby Johnson worked in for URSA in
Talbot and the Holographic Universe
Mannheimer and the Mann Ranch Seminars. Guy was Toby's first lover, 1972-1976.
About Esther Bell.
Esther was a 90 year old woman whom Guy and Toby befriended and visited
and took care of a little for 3 or 4 in the mid-70s. We used to drive
her to the grocery store.
author of The Politics
of Homosexuality and Sons of Harvard: Gay Men in the Class of
San Francisco painter and artist
Toby & Kip's friend in London and gay Catholic saint
Baltzell, literary editor, good friend and wonderful man. He
introduced me to A Course in Miracles. And changed my life!
Paddie, Austin/San Antonio playwright, poet, and vagabond bon
vivant. Dennis wrote a beautiful tribute to fellow Texas playwright Sterling Houston who died November 8,
Toby and Kip's successful long term
relationship and the Wedding Cake
Liberation Event in San Antonio, June 16, 2005
Steves and Patrick Kerr in the San Antonio gay community of the
was a social organization of gay & lesbian professionals in San
Antonio. Toby & Kip were part of the original establishment of the
and The Loving Brotherhood. Ralph Walker was one of the Fathers of
the Gay Spirituality Movement.
Heinrich Ulrichs, creator of modern gay consciousness. The firtst
man to really "come out."
Antonio lovable "character."
McMurtrey, Toby's -- very influential and life-changing -- writing
teacher in high school.
Dollar & Toby Johnson participated with hundreds of other
couples in a "group marriage ceremony" in front of the IRS Building
during the Second March on Washington in 1987.
Thayer, San Antonio wise woman, (Nov 21,
1914 - May 22, 2013) has a
message for children of all ages about positive self-esteem. Read about
Eva's Miracles. She led a wonderful life.
Toby's favorite teacher at the
California Institute of Asian Studies. Kim was an accomplished painter.
She created a set of Tarot cards of the Major Arcana. Here are photographs of her cards.
Carole, Toby's occasional housemate, friend, and wonderful
was a cute and lovable gay man in Austin in the late 80s to mid-90s. He
died of AIDS just before the drug cocktails came into use. Cliff can be
credited with starting the South Congress -- SoCo District -- shopping
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wonderful soft sci-fi Lambda
and Spectrum-honored SECRET
MATTER, in a new, updated, revised,
and expanded edition for the 21st Century.
story set in 1890s America
GETTING LIFE IN
wisdom of A
in Miracles applied to AIDS in a sci fi thriller
reissued in 2012 under the name THE FOURTH
Steve Berman, CHARMED LIVES: Gay Spirit in
Storytelling, more than 30 authors about the "charm" of being gay
In collaboration with Walter L. Williams, TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life With the Navajo, a
beautiful, romantic novel about Native American gender and sexual
patterns set in the Old West.
Toby Johnson was Walter Williams' editor for Spirit of
a sweet romance set in Civil War times about an escaped slave's journey
to freedom and happiness in the Pacific Islands culture of Hawaii.
Finding God in the Sexual Underworld: The Journey
True Myth: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell
Spirituality: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of
Perspective: Things Our
[Homo]sexuality Tells Us About the Nature of God and the Universe
Great Secret: An
Appreciation of Joseph Campbell (Celestial Arts, 1992)
In Search of
Sexual Underworld: A Mystical Journey (Morrow, 1983)
Several of Toby's O.P. or unavailable m.s.s. are available for free
influence on Toby Johnson's thought
style is science fiction
Here's a short article In Honor of Sir
Arthur C. Clarke. Because Arthur C. Clarke was a gay
man, there are
meaningful themes in his books and writing. In 2016 a movie was made
for TV of his novel Childhood's End. Toby Johnson comments on
this movie AND what the novel was really about. Karellen
was a homosexual
Done on Earth by Howard E. Cook. Blending
modern-day physics and cosmology, a little Teilhard and a little
Matthew Fox, comparative religion, some Joseph Campbell, intelligent
New Age thought, progressed Christianity, American political idealism,
evolutionary theory, postmodernism, Pope John the Beloved calls for a
new Church of the Second Coming--also referred to (iconoclastically) as
the Church of Kingdom Come--COKC (try pronouncing the acronym). It’s a
sex-positive religion based in an evolutionary model of human nature
with an openly gay priesthood.
Pay Me What I'm Worth by
Souldancer says he is blending good business practice with
multicultural ancient wisdom. As the exercises continue, they
demonstrate that giving is the way to get and that integrity and
ethical living is the best success and the way to get paid by life with
happiness and fulfillment. So the thing about asking for a raise is
really a hook to pull you toward enightenment and wisdom.
The Way Out by Christopher Lee
Intermixing themes in current spiritual thought—the Dalai Lama, Joseph
Campbell, Don Miguel Ruiz, Gary Zukav, A Course in Miracles, the Twelve
Steps—Nutter offers an answer to who you really are. And in the process
recounts how he came to understand this through his experience in urban
gay culture. The answer, of course, isn’t new or surprising. It’s the
age-old answer: we are each a perspective that “God” or “Divine
Consciousness” or “the cosmos”—whatever you want to call IT—is taking
The Gay Disciple by John Henson.
consciousness is now part of human consciousness and naturally
recapitulates Jesus’s teaching that love and compassion trump religion
and law. It’s good that the Jesus story be written to include gay
experience. The Life of Christ is an appropriate subset of gay literary
Dares by Kitt Cherry, presents erotic imagery based in Christian
tradition. Cherry is the author of JESUS IN LOVE, a novelist
"autobiography of Jesus" as sexually and psychologically sophisticated,
a real "tour de force" in transforming traditional myth to modern
Dimensional Structure of Consciousness by Samuel Avery is a
challenging and enlightening model of how consicousness generates the
experience of the world. It was such a neat idea that I incorporated
elements of it in my revised edition of SECRET MATTER.
Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality: a review of Kennth Burr's Coming
Out, Coming Home with a discussion of the difference between
"spirituality & religion for gay people" and "Gay Spirituality" for
the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois is an allegorical account, a
set in a modern Texas prison, of the appearance of a Christ-like figure
who reaches out to his fellow offenders with a visionary message of
Coffee: A conversation For Gay Partnership & Conservative Faith
by D.a. Thompson is a conversation between a Conservative Christian
Pastor and a Conservative Christian layman--the author, D.a.--who
advocates for the acceptance of gay partnership within religious
congregations. He makes different arguments from the usual pro-gay
marriage ones because he is NOT a proponent of same sex marriage, but
of fairness within Christian churches in how the human (sinful)
condition is treated. Interesting!
Kenneth Low is a life of
Christ written as a mystery story/puzzle asking the question why was
Jesus actually executed. What crime had he committed that was so
heinous, it deserved crucifxion? Whether you'd agree with the biblical
exegetical approach in this book or not, it is really interesting and
Janet Planet by
Lerman is a wonderfully
engaging and beautifully written roman
à clef-style novel based on the real life characters surrounding
Carlos Castenada and The Teachings
of Don Juan.
The Jesus we never
knew is presented in two interesting and entertaining books that offer
insight into the real message of religion: The
Kairos by Paul E. Hartman and Wrestling
with Jesus by D.K.Maylor.
Kali Rising by Rudolph
a very interesting book about the "Foundational Principles of Tantra,"
but it is far more than a book of Hindu mythology. It's about a whole
approach to life based in maintaining balance.
The Missing Myth by
Herrada examines the science and current psychological/philosophical
ideas about the nature and origins of homosexuality.
of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook calls for a rediscovery of
the Gnostic Christianity that underlay Jesus' teachings. The Second
Coming is here and now.
The Scar Letters: A
Novel by Richard Alther is a sensitive,
beautifully-written and ultimately moving and heartwarming account of a
modern gay man coming to terms with personal pain and human suffering.
A great read. Emotionally and literarily satisfying.
Queer edited by Richard Labonte & Lawrence Schimel is an
anthology of science fiction short stories with interesting,
occasionally unsettling, but always insightful predictions of a "queer"
Charlene Spretnak, subititled The Queen of Heaven and Her Re-emergence
in the Modern Church, is a partly scholarly, partly personal account of
modern day Catholic devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
Spirituality 101: An Introduction to the Theory of Homophilia by
Joe Perez astutely discusses the gay spirituality movement from the
evolutionary persepctive of Ken Wilber.
Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark
Wildyr is a sexy adventure novel about gay men and Native Americans in
the Old West.
Eleanor Lerman is a story about the alluring mystery of life--all tied
up with aliens, interstellar broadcasts, new age religion and a lovable
little dog named Digitaria.
at Rizzoli by Felice Picano is a memoir by a very successful and
wonderful writer in the gay genre who worked at the New York upscale
bookstore of the title.
by Ken Stofft describes how gender role expectations confine and
restrict so many men's joy and happiness.
to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo is an easy-to-read
book of sensible advice for LGBTQ youth for how to take the next step.
Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar is a didactic novel about gay rights
and traditional Christian values. It very well presents a range of
issues from PFLAG, same-sex marriage, anti-gay bullying to organ
donation and husband-wife relationship. And it's got a good story.
by David Duncan is a science-fiction novel from the 1950s. I reread it
recently and discovered it's partly the basis for the metaphysical of
parallel universes that appears in my novel Secret Matter.
Demion by Mel White is a part whimsical, part serious and profound
fable about angels and demons and the struggle for truth about gay
Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L.
Rigoglioso is a wonderful book about the 14 Distinct Positive
Contributing Traits of gay men.
The Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by
Samuel Avery is one of the neatest ideas I have ever come across. I
think this explains what "reality" is.
Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love: Your Guide to Life, Happiness and
Emotional and Sexual Fulfillment in a Closed-Down World by Perry
Brass is a collection of good advice and wisdom about life and love AND
an all-encompassing theory of religion and myth as clues to the Deeper
Together: Longtime Male Couples on Healthy Intimacy and Communication
by Tim Clausen presents accounts of some twenty gay relationships
lasting as long as 65 years. It's a wonderful demonstration of the
strength of men's love and caring.
War Between Materialism and Spiritual by
Jean-Michel Bitar is a partly whimsical, but earnest account of a
philosophical quest to understand the meanings of "Materialism" and
"Spiritualism" and where the supposed "war" comes from.
Serpent's Gift: Gnostic Reflections on the Study of Religion by
Jeffrey J. Kripal discusses the outsider, external observer stance on
myth and religion. A wonderful, if dense, read. A delightful chapter on
the homoerotics of the story of Jesus.
American and the Religion of No Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal is a
wonderful history of Esalen Institute, the "New Age" conference center
on the West Coast. But it is so much more. It's a summary of the
insights into religion and mythology that have changed America in the
The Invitation to Love by Darren Pierre is a book
of wise and sweet meditations or lessons about the nature of love and
how to find love. Pierre is a gay, Black man; you can feel his
sincerity and sensitivity in his writings.
Consciousness, and God: A Lonerganian Integration by Daniel A
Helminiak is a challenging book, but well-worth the effort. It
addresses the questions of how religious experience happens in the
brain, and specifically the relation between mind and body.
Walk with Four Spiritual Guides by Andrew Harvey offers personal
and insightful glimpses of Krishna, Buddha, Jesus, and Ramakrishna.
Christians Be Saved? A Mystical Path to Oneness by Virginia T
Stephenson & Buck A Rhodes PhD is a delightful blend of world
religions to produce a modern, sensible mystical post-religious
Lost Secrets of the Ancient Mystery Schools by Virginia T
Buck A Rhodes PhD is an example of the kind of mystical practices in
their earlier book, Can Christians Be Saved, but applied specifically
to pivotal events in the life of Jesus.
Being: Energy Meditation and Synchronization Exercises by Adrian
Ravarour gives instructions for becoming aware of subtle energy fields
in the body and between individuals.
Trust by John Marsh, is subtitled: How a Queer Social Poet Can
Save America from Itself. What a great idea! Toby Johnson's review
discusses the nature of internalized homophobia and projection.
Tantric Song by Rollan McCleary derives a positive view
of sex and eroticism from the Biblical book The Songs of Songs. There
are several gay-positive discussions of homosexuallity.
Special Illumination by Rollan McCleary surveys the Gay
Spirituality Movement and efforts within established churches to accept
gay people. Very wide-ranging book.
by Lawrence Scott is a sweet and touching novel featuring a young
Benedictine novice discovering and coping with his homosexuality in the
context of Catholic monastic life.
Basket: A Gay Man's Journey by Payam
Ghassemlou is a dramatization in semi-fictional form of a developmental
stage model for gay men's lives.
by John Ollom documents the noted choreographer's career and sets for
his ideas for using dance and movement as access to the deep and mythic
unconscious. A beautiful book just to look at and hold in your hand.
by David Hatfield Sparks is a book of poetry that spins autobiogrpahy
into myth and symbol. The author is one of the important characters in
the creation of gay/queer spirit and culture. With his partner Randy P.
Conner, he produced Cassell's Encyclopedia of Queer Myth, Symbol,
by Brad Boney is a delightful novel about the fantasy of recapturing
youth and the wisdom of choosing things just as they are.
of the Goddess
by William Schindler merges the European Vampire novel with Tantric
mysticism and worship of the Goddess Kali into a novel full of ecstatic
rapture and transcendetal wisdom.
Roads of Excess,
by Jeffrey Kripal argues that the study of mysticism is itself a
mystical practice. He cites the lives of five writers--and includes
himself in a series of asides within the book--to demonstrate his
point. Since at least two of his subjects were homosexual, there's a
very interesting strain in this book about homoeroticism and
Desire: A Gay Reading of Saints by Donald Boisvert offers wonderful
observations about the nature of gay religiousness.
Dharma: Meditation, Buddhism, and the Next Generation of Enlightenment
by Jay Michaelson is an inspiring account of this gay spiritual
writer's practice of Buddhist meditation. It has one of the best
discussions of queer theeory I;ve ever read.
in Salome's Lot by
Brett W. Gillette is a decoding of the Christian Scriptures to discover
deeper meanings behind the actual words and letters. The book certainly
shows how to use the Bible like a crystal ball to stimulate intuition
Man Who Loved Birds
by Fenton Johnson is a beautiful and poignant novel. It's about sexual
and emotional liberation, but it's also about the hardness that is in
the heart of Man and anger with which those in authority sometimes
treat those who don't give a whit about authority.
Vatican Murders by
Lucien Gregoire is an account of the mysterious death of Albino
Luciani—Pope John Paul I—by a gay man who had a personal connection to
the short-lived, but potentially revolutionary Pope.
by Brian McNaught was reviewed in White Crane Journal in 2005. This is
a semi-fictionalized account of the sexual attitudes trainings McNaught
is famous for teaching.
About with Brewer &
Berg Episode One: Searching for a New Mythology is a DVD/Streaming
"Travelogue" of spiritual sites in Europe with a uniquely gay male
Soul Beneath the Skin
by David Nimmons is a wonderful book, published in 2002, about gay
men's cultures. This is a must-read for every gay man to understand the
dimensions of gay consciousness.
Holy Ground by
Donald Boisvert is a series of meditations of gay spiritual
consciousness. Particularly interesting is the discussion of male
Revolutionary Psychology of Gay-Centeredness
by Mitch Walker is a short monograph about Jungian themes in gay
consciousness. The review links to numerous articles by Walker's
students in Uranian Psychoanalysis and Gay-Centered Psychology.
Perry Brass, a collection of short stories--a little horror, a little
supernatural, a little afterlife… neat!
The Crucifixion of Hyacinth by Geoff Puterbaugh is
a study of ancient history tracing the rise of homophobia in human
thought. Scholarly but readable.
Silence of Sodom
by Mark D Jordan is a classic about homosexuality and the Catholic
Church. The beginning of the book is precious--What if the Holy Spirit
reveals to the Vatican that they're wrong on homosexuality? Who would
dare to share their revelation from God?
Never About What It's About by
Krandall Kraus and Paul Borja is subtitled “What We Learned About
Living While We Were Waiting to Die" is a wonderful book of wisdom that
demonstrates the paradoxically positive consequences of AIDS in gay
men's lives and collective cultures.
edited by Catherine Lake is an anthology, mostly of Canadian writers,
about queer perspectives on religion. As the title suggests, we are
by Wilton Barnhard is a WONDERFUL novel about the secret history of
religion. It's about a "Lost Gospel" written by one of the Apostles
which a modern Scripture scholar, wise man, and wild character believes
in hidden somewhere and he is out to find it. This is one of the best
books I have ever read.
Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey
by Fenton Johnson is a beautifully written account of the spiritual
quest and, particularly, the route through monastic life--both Trappist
and Zen Buddhist.
the Greek Gods by
Brad Gooch is a whimsical but wise and insightful discussion of gay
men's dating patterns from a Jungian, archetypal perspective.
Truths in Church by Mark D. Jordan reveals the way religious
language hides and confuses real morality and ethics.
Substance of God by Perry Brass is a science fiction thriller with
a religious/ mythological theme woven in, along with a little hot porn.
by Jack Nichols is an entertaining memoir of one oif the pioneers of
Gay Liberation and a wonderful example of finding true love (even
though it was tragically lost). Jack Nichols, as a writer and magazine
editor, helped create our modern ideas of what "gay" means.
Things Gay Men Can Do to Improve Their Lives
by Joe Kort is an excellent description of how we can live our gay
lives to the full potential. Kort would be a very good personal
psychotherapist; you can learn from him through the book.
Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same Sex Love,
Will Roscoe's classic interpretation of Jesus and the revolutionary
idea of the love of equals.
Third Appearance by Walter Starcke & The Last Hours of Ancient Sunlight by Thom
Hartmann discuss the future of evolution, both mystically and
and Thriving After a Life-Threatening Diagnosis by Bev Hall is a
book by an experienced nurse who faced a threatening diagnosis herself.
She shares wise insight.
Homosexuality, and the Gods
by Ronald E. Long is a scholarly analysis on the meaning of
in religion down through time--with a special focus on sex role
playing. And An
Interview with Ron
An Interview with
Randy Conner about his and David Sparks' books
and especially Queering Creole Spiritual Traditions. And a review of the book
and Time by Gerald Heard who was an important figure in the 1940s
& 50s in the development of what's now called New Age.
and the Sacred by Daniel Helminiak includes 15
essays on religious and psychological issues that gay men and lesbian
by Mark Jordan is a scholarly, but also whimsical and entertaining,
study of marriage and marriage rites. It's even more useful in
understanding these issues now that Marriage Equality has been
recognized by the Supreme Court.
by Joe Perez is a book in the form of a blog. Subtitled Reflections on
Gay Culture, Politics and Spirit, this book is filled with interesting
and provocative insights and commentaries.
by Joe Perez is a memoir/blog/spiritual autobiography. Perez is a
disciple of Ken WIlber and writes in the context of Wilber's Integral
Undeniable Longing by Mark Tedesco, an entertaining and interesting
account of vocation to the priesthood and the problems it creates.
Steve Berman, a review of the entertaining, light-hearted horror
novel— along with a little history of White Crane Books and Lethe Press.
for the Soul by Larry Chang is a 800+ page compedium of wise and
winderful quotes. Inspiring. And gay-inclusive.
MM4M a DVD
Bruce Grether teaches methods for transforming masturbation into a
spiritual discipline and developing high erotic states.
by David Ranan is a scathing report
on the Catholic Church and a call for major reform.
by Daniel Helminiak, the popular Dignity priest and
philosopher/psychologist of religion and consciousness, who offers a
positive way to understand Christianity.
by Kittredge Cherry -- in two volumes -- is an autobiography of Jesus
Christ. A remarkable novel, with Jesus as a sexually mature and aware
the Eye of the Storm
by Gene Robinson, Foreword by Demond Tutu is about the transformations
that gay awareness is forcing on religion and the churches—and for
their own best good!
by Sven Davisson is a collection of edgy stories and essays, with one
of the best explanations of Michel Foucault I've ever read.
Paradox by Fr Paul Murray is a novelistic autobiography by the
first openly gay Catholic priest in the diocese of Washington DC.
Spirituality for Our Global Community by Daniel
Helminiak is a Lonerganian explanation of religious by one of our best
thinkers and spiritual writers.
Gay & Healthy in a Sick Society
by Robert A. Minor is a collection of articles from the Kansas monthly
LGBT Magazine. Minor is especially interested in how homophobia
confuses and degrades society.
Coming Out: Irish Gay Experiences by Glen O'Brien,
a collection of moving and authentic essays and stories about life in
Ireland as gay.
by Robert Goss is a book of Queer Theology, illuminated by personal
autobiographical stories by the author, a Catholic priest who moved
beyond the Church to become a queer activist.
by Dan Savage is an hilarious sendup of conventional morality in the
interests of redefining and calling for real virtue in our modern
world. Great fun!
Flesh of the Word by Richard A Rosato, a novel avbout a gay man who
develops the stigmata and can cure AIDS by his touch, a beautiful story.
by David Garrett Izzo is a novel written in the form of a children's
book about power and evil--and housecats the size of people, a
for Gay Men
by Bruce Anderson is a wonderful introduction to a very complicated
topic in the history of religions, along with a useful workbook for
actual practice in the tantric tradition.
the Path of the Urban Mystic
by Darren Main is a wonderful summary of the principles of the
spiritual life, told in the context of yoga and Hinduism, but
applicable way beyond these specific traditions.
by Malcolm Boyd, a memoir organized around the life lessons Fr. Boyd
learned and taught.
by Salvatore Sapienza is a semi-autobiographical novel of a young man
entering Catholic religious life and living through the growing pains
of discovering his true self.
Does "Queer" Mean Anyway?
by Chris Bartlett is a simplified, but useful, primer about the meaning
of the alphabet soup of LGBTQIA+ terminology, written by a non-gay man
for non-gay people.
Critique of Patriarchal Reasoning by Arthur Evans
is a history of the branch of philosophy called Logic by a major gay
activist in the 1970s.
the Soul by Dale Colclasure & David Jensen is a book about
self-discovery, including gay meaning, written inthe form of a novel.
Legend of the Raibow Warriors
by Steven McFadden is a good book about ecological and spiritual change
that doesn't include gay people, but should, in its vision of a
Prayer by Gregory Flood offers a vision of spirituality beyond myth
are the Messengers
by Daniel Plasman is a heart-felt religious novel about how religion
can inspire hate and prejudice even when the messengers don't intend it
The Human Core of Spirituality
by Daniel Helminiak is a brilliant application of the ideas of Bernard
Lonergan, Helminiak's teacher, to the nature of spirit and of human
Religion and the Human Sciences by Daniel
Helminiak is a companion to The Human Core of Spirituality. It includes
a refutation of Ken Wilber.
The Final Odyssey
by Arthur C. Clarke completes the Space Odyssey Triology with a
peculiarly Buddhistic approach to the god-like beings who sent the
Monolith in the first place.
by Daniel Curzon is interesting, educational and provocative epistolary
novel about creating a gay family through artificial insemination. This
review from 1998 is especially interesting because of its discussion of
author self-publishing and the development of Print-on-Demand
Reviews of Books with a Message: High in the Andes: A
Spiritual Adventure Novel by William Michael Kaufman; Planet of
Darkness: A Spirit's Journey through time and matter to save his planet
by Jerry Belvo; Where the Rainbow Ends by Jameson
Currier; Every Man for Himself: A Novel of Love, Romance, and
Finding Mr. Right by Orland Outland.
by Michael Parise, subtittled "Taking Charge After Everything Has
Changed," offers healing advice for dealing with aburpt and unexpetced
change in one's life. Wirrten by a former priest and gay man who
knows what he is talking about.
Confessions of a Murdered Pope
by Lucien Gregoire is a collection of stories, the most important of
which, the title story, is about the ideas of Pope John Paul I, as told
by a fictional reincarnation of the pope who ruled only for 33 days
before dying mysteriously.
by Eleanor Lerman is a wonderfully eerie and evocative novel about
allien abduction with several neat, and illuminating, twists in the
Living, Conscious Aging by
Ron Pevny is really supportive and helpful book in thinking about aging
and considering the meaningfulness of your life. It's got good advice,
intermixed with easy-to-relate-to anecdotes and personal stories.
Footprints Through the Desert
by Joshua Kauffman is a account of a life-crisis of young adulthood
about looking for love, finding love and then losing it when it all
goes wrong. Interesting story. Good psychological anaysis.
J.L. Weinberg is a horror novel about ghosts and witches in modern New
England. But it's also about a gay man's spiritual insight into the
nature of religion. Very nicely done.
The Mediterranean Universe by John Newmeyer is a
book of humorous essays about cats as people.
is God: The Radical Path of Nondual Judaism
by Jay Michaelson is a wonderful mystical treatise on oneness,
emptiness, and the real nature of God told through a personal blending
of Buddhism wisdom and Jewish Kabbalah.
by Dennis Merritt argues that everything in our experience is a
"perfect reflection" of what is going on in our inner lives. It's a
brilliant concept--something we all experience but seldom acknowledge
by Fenton Johnson is a collection of essays about modern life, some
autobiographical, all beautifully written with very wise insight.
by James Gaston is fast-paced murder mystery set in a private religious
college where hypocrisy breeds crime and crime leads to death. AND it's
got a sexy and sweet three-way right in the middle of the investigation.
by Jay Michaelson makes "The Religious Case for Equality." Michaleson
explains why religion ought to be pro-gay and welcoming of LGBTQ
people. Very good book and very understandable explanation of
hard-to-understand ideas in the Bible.
Gate of Tears: Sadness and the Spiritual Path
by Jay Michaelson is a touching blend of personal soul-searching,
poetical text, and wisdom teaching about how to accept the pain of
being human that necessaily accompanies spiritual growth.
Fred by Richard Alther is a novel sweet love story--a real life
version of Harold and Maude but with senisible people, and lots
of wisdom about experiencing life fully. A joy to read.
the Son He Expected
by Tim Clausen is a collection of interviews with gay men about their
relationships with their fathers. It's very interesting, and very
9 Realities of Stardust
by Bruce P. Grether is a beautiful and inspiring statement of spiritual
wisdom explained in the worldivew of modern science. It's brilliant.
by Anne & Whitley Strieber is a remarkable account of love and
death, and love surviving death, but also an important treatise on the
nature of reality and the unexpected, but well-documented phenomena
that UFOS and contact with the dead are interrelated.
Queer Spirit Awakening by
Shokti Lovestar is little book of poetry and wisdom by a London-based
Radical Faerie English wiseman about how to understand AIDS mystically
and spiritually, not as punishment but as opportunity and warning.
the Truth of Your Life
by Merle Yost is a book of truly "good advice" and explanantion of
human psychological dynamics. It's interesting, readable, and quite
Super Natural: Why the Unexplained is Real by
Whitley Strieber & Jeffrey J Kripal is a dialogue between THE
expert on alien abductions and UFOs and a brilliant professor of
Jeffrey J Kripal takes up similar ideas of those in The Super
Kripal argues that "paranormal phenomena," like hauntings, apparitions,
clairvoyance, UFOs, alien abductions, etc—all demonstrate the existence
of a greater reality. And it is from those kinds of experiences inthe
past that the religions were born. A brilliant book.
House by Jonathan Lane is a fiictional memoir by a young man who
tells of being Adolph Hitler's male whore. An amazing story.
Surprisingly entertaining despite the subject matter. Hitler comes off
worse than ever.
Walking on Glory by Edward Swift is a sweet,
funny, poignant character of a crazy but lovable Texas lady.
of Porn by Don Shewey is a wonderful statement of how to understand
the modern phenomenon of sex videos positively and non-judgmentally.
Is Heaven for Real? by Lucien Gregoire debunks the
popular story of the Miracle of the Sun at Fatima in 1917.
Meeker is a detective novel with a wonderful dramatization of intuition
and mystical insight. A neat combination of genres.
In Search of Lost Lives by Michael Goddart is a
remarkable book about the spiritual practice of remembering past lives
and "reliving" mystical and enlightenment experiences from previous
by Tomas Prower is a survey of LGBTQ+ themes in myth, religion,
folklore and culture around the world. A wonderful revelation of gay
characters in religions we are usually never told about.
Your Body by Jay Michaelson is a wonderful presentation of Jewish
wisdom all focused on showing how the spiritual life has to be lived in
a body. You can learn to include your body in your awareness of God.
Wow! Beautiful read.
Whispering Spirit by Gary Preuss is a report on the kinds of
paranormal experiences we all have of strange coincidences or
intuitions from the divine blended nicely with the author's personal
experiences, showing that all the strange phenomena point to a greater
universe than we ordinarily realize.
of Dorothy by Dee Michel reports on the phenomenon we all are
familiar with that The Wizard of Oz holds a special fascination
for gay men. The book includes a wonderful discussion of the nature of
Strieber tells of the discovery of a new branch of intelligent beings
in the jungles on Sumatra. It's a sweet and really mind-expanding
sci-fi novel about alternative kinds of consciousness.
Developing Supersensible Perception by Shelli
Renee Joye, a wide-ranging synthesis of theories about the nature of
consciousness and the human ability to perceive consciousness itself
from a higher perspective.
Sapien by Johnson Chong is an autobiography of an Asian-American
gay man discovering spirituality through acting class, intense
meditation practice, and finding how to come out to his parents, and
prove himself a worthwhile teacher.
the Future by Arthur Rosengarten, an exploration of the history of
Tarot and fortunetelling woven into modern concepts of space, time and
Across Time by Brad Boney, a novel with time travel, wistful
romance, unexplained paradoxes , and satisfying happy endings all
of Castro Street by Marc Huestis is an entertaining, interesting,
and sometimes moving account of the life of the well-known and
accomlished gay filmmaker.
Andrew Ramer, a
of the stories of the Torah and Biblical times the way things probably
really happened, but with a positive spiritual message behind it all.
Pagan Heart of the West, Vol 1 by Randy P. Conner is an
encyclopedia of gods and sacred beings hidden from history, but now
Tantra by William Schindler is about the routine daily religion of
Tantric Hinduism without all the mumbo jumbo sometimes associated with
the word Tantra.
Jeffrey J. Kripal is a book about changing perspective to see that
consciousness is bigger than just the human brain, and the world we all
live in is just the surface of a greater "super natural" reality.
Galilee Episode by Ronald Goetz explains that the mysterious verses
in the New Testament about "one being taken and one being left" which
are the basis of The Rapture myth are really about gay men and lesbians
entrapped in a Pharisee-led moral crusade during Jesus's time.
World by Whitley Strieber is a book about UFOs, alien encounters,
and glimpses into the afterlife; it's a book about the greater nature
by Damien Rowse describes a remarkable yogic-like meditation practice
of holding another man chest to chest, belly to belly for prolonged
periods of blending and sharing vital energy.
by Justin Michael Williams, an instruction book in mantra meditation
addressed to a young, hip-hop generation with lots of good advice about
how to fulfill one's life.
Mountains of Paris
by David Oates is a memoir blended into a discovery of French Art and
Music, beautifully and evocatively written with a lovely spiritual-like
by Trudie Barreras tells the true story of a marriage in which the gay
husband's sexuality is recognized and handled honestly and positively
and Martin by Frederick Williams, Lane Denton, and G Sterling
Zinsmeyer is an historical novel about the important friendship btween
Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr., and his gay lieutenant, Professor Bayard
How to be an Excellent Human Being
by Bill Meacham, a wonderful book that truly explains everything from
the nature of reality to consciousness to how to live well and be happy
the best and right way.
by Eric Cervini is the story of Frank Kameny, the leader of Washington
Mattachine, author of the phrase "Gay is Good," and legitimately worthy
of being considered the Founder of the Gay Rights Movement. A very good
book about very important history.
Is the Grass
by Mark Doty, a literary analysis of Walt Whitman's poetry, into which
is beautifully blended a series of meditations and musings on the
nature of sex, love, and especially the Self, with a capital S.
by Suzanne DeWitt Hall is a book of meditations, some practical, some
profound, on the spiritual side of sex and how to experience sex as
The Sum of All the Pieces
by Paul Bradford is a heartrending but ultimately uplifting account of
an older gay man's struggle to be true to himself in spite of
by Mel White reports on the damage the anti-gay interpretation of Bible
verses can do to real people—with advice about to to protect yourself
from such beliefs.
the Time in the World by J. Lee Graham is a delightful Young Adult
novel with a time travel plot and some interesting "rules" for time
Paper, Rock by Fenton Johnson is a poignant and beautiful and
satisfying novel of life and death and the modernizing of America.