Table of Contents
Also on this website:
SPIRITUALITY: The Role of
Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness
Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature
of God and the Universe
MATTER: updated, revised & expanded edition from Lethe Press
with Afterword by Mark Jordan
LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE: A romance novel set in the 1980s and the 1890s.
THE FOURTH QUILL, a
novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the
Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams
CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into
Gold: Reclaiming Our Queer Spirituality Through Story
A NOVEL ABOUT HEALING.
Books on Gay Spirituality:
Crane Gay Spirituality Series
Toby's review of Samuel Avery's The
Dimensional Structure of
Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San
Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate
Why gay people should NOT Marry
Wedding Cake Liberation
Gay Marriage in Texas
Shame on the American People
The "highest form of love"
Second March on
Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality
cause of homosexuality
origins of homophobia
about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness
What is homosexuality?
is Gay Spirituality?
What Jesus said about Gay
Common Experiences Unique to Gay
Is there a "uniquely gay
The purpose of homosexuality
The Reincarnation of Edward
The Gay Succession
Interview on the Nature of
What the Bible Says about
Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men
of Gay Spirituality
of Gay Liberation Activity
Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality
as Artistic Medium
Easton Mountain Retreat Center
Andrew Harvey &
Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and
the "Statement of Spirituality"
"It's Always About You"
The myth of the
Joseph Campbell's description of
Avalokiteshvara at the Baths.
Not A Wave
What is Enlightenment?
What is reincarnation?
How many lifetimes in an ego?
Emptiness & Religious Ideas
Experiencing experiencing experiencing
Going into the Light
Meditations for a Funeral
The way to get to heaven
Buddha's father was right
Advice to Travelers to India
The Danda Nata
& goddess Kalika
Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva
John Boswell was Immanuel Kant
The Two Loves
Toby Johnson Believes
The Joseph Campbell Connection
Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy
The Nature of Religion
What's true about
Gay is a Blessing
Drawing Long Straws
Gay Spiritual Functions
The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.
The Sinfulness of
for a study of gay nondualism
"The Evolution of Gay Identity"
"St. John of the
Dark Night of the Soul."
Let Me Tell You a Secret
Religious Articulations of the
The Collective Unconscious
Driving as Spiritual Practice
Step in Evolution
The Moulting of the Holy Ghost
is a Bodhisattva
The Hero's Journey as archetype
Immaculate Conception & Assumption
Prostitution and the Nature of Evil
Hu: "God is present here"
The Life is in the Blood
retirement and the "freelance monastery"
Seeing with Different Eyes
experience at the Servites' Castle in Riverside
Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis
The Techniques Of The World Saviors
Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the
Part 2: The
Part 3: Jesus
and the Resurrection
Part 4: A
Course in Miracles
Secret of the Clear Light
Understanding the Clear Light
Souls Get Reincarnated
In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke
Karellen was a homosexual
About Alien Abduction
are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?
about Gay Mental Health
Ideas for gay
Kip and Toby,
and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.
Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement
About Hay and The New Myth
About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first
man to really "come out"
Michael Talbot, gay mystic
About Fr. Bernard Lynch
About Richard Baltzell
About Guy Mannheimer
About David Weyrauch
About Dennis Paddie
About Ask the Fire
About Arthur Evans
About Christopher Larkin
About Sterling Houston
About Michael Stevens
Our friend Tom Nash
Be Done on Earth
by Howard E. Cook
Pay Me What I'm Worth by
The Way Out by Christopher
The Gay Disciple by John Henson
Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry
Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth
the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois
Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay
Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson
Dark Knowledge by
Janet Planet by Eleanor
Kairos by Paul E. Hartman
with Jesus by D.K.Maylor
Kali Rising by Rudolph
Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada
Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook
The Scar Letters: A Novel
by Richard Alther
Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel
by Charlene Spretnak
Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez
Cut Hand: A
Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr
by Eleanor Lerman
Rizzoli by Felice Picano
to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo
The Door of the
Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar
by David Duncan
and Demion by Mel White
Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L.
Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery
Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass
C.S. Lewis was an influential
in modern Christianity. He was a classical Oxford don who wrote
pedantic studies of medieval literature. He also wrote the Narnia
children's stories--for which, curiously, he may be best known. ("The
Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" has been made into a FX movie
blockbuster for Christmas 2005.) Lewis
wrote several fantasy, "mystical sci-fi," novels.
Perelandra is a parable about the nature of
and mystical consciousness; it tells of a British college professor who
is whisked off by angelic-like beings to act as "God"'s spokesman when
the Adam and Eve of Venus, "Perelandra" in their language, are being
tempted by the devil--who appears in the form of an Earth scientist and
technocrat. It is a beautiful tale of the conquest of goodness. Most
interestingly, Lewis devises a mythic cosmology of light beings and
guardians spirits; Earth's mythologies, he proposes, are erroneous
attempts to grasp this cosmology.
As we know from the play and movie, Shadowlands, C.S.
a "bachelor," living with his alcoholic brother most of his life,
living as a
sort of celibate cleric of academe. He certainly wasn't a modern gay
man, but he was one of us, I think.
A deeply religious man in later life, he interpreted
Christianity of the Great Britain of the mid-20th century in which he
lived into what he thought would be a living religion.
He had some
dismissive things to say about homosexual bonding in his book THE FOUR
That's hardly a valid argument against homosexual activity in
the ancient world. Indeed, those comments only go to show how
stereotyped was Lewis's understanding of homosexuality throughout
even more importantly, how closeted--perhaps even from himself--he
really was. At any rate, he lived long before gay liberation and before
homosexuality was understood in a modern, enlightened psychological
"... all those hairy old toughs of centurions
in Tacitus, clinging to one another and begging for last kisses when
the legion was broken up...all pansies? If you can believe it you can
While I want to claim Jack Lewis, as as he was called, as "one of us"
-- in the sense of being a visionary spurred on by aberrant sexuality
and freedom from conventional gender and familial roles -- I doubt he
was particularly sexually active in any meaningful way, either
homosexually or heterosexually. Though it is true that his longest
lifetime friend, Arthur Greeves, was homosexual. He
wasn't ignorant of sexual diversity; and he apparently wasn't
judgmental of homosexuality in his personal affairs. (Though a very
public "Christian," C.S. Lewis was NOT an example of the current day
"Family Values" Fundamentalist Christian.)
His marriage to Joy Davidman Gresham was mostly a scam of the British
immigration system and then later of that nation's socialized medicine.
After World War I, he'd come home at age 18 and moved the 45 year-old
Mrs. Maureen Moore and her 11 year-old daughter into his home, having
made a pact with his army buddy Paddy Moore that he'd care for his
friend's family in case Paddy died. Biographers assuming his
heterosexuality hypothesize he was in love with Mrs. Moore the 30 years
they lived together. The presumption of a repressed homosexuality might
better explain that he was bound to the Moore family by his
intense--and certainly never to be reciprocated--affection for his
friend Paddy. Who knows? Until the current transformation of
understanding about homosexuality, such details were routinely
concealed and misrepresented.
Jack Lewis was certainly a visionary.
In his mystical fiction, he spoke raptuously about a
vision of the whole cosmos as a living being textured of light and
energy, far beyond the naive personal God of popular Christianity. From
him comes the sentence: "We live in an environment of mind as well as
Here is a wonderful excerpt from Perelandra which
describes the mystical experience of seeing directly into "the Great
Dance" of the multi-dimensional spacetimeconsciousness contiuum that is
the true cosmos:
"In the plan of the Great Dance plans without
number interlock, and each movement becomes in its season the breaking
into flower of the whole design to which all else had been directed.
Thus each is equally at the centre and none are there by being equals,
but some by giving place and some by receiving it, the small things by
their smallness and the great by their greatness, and all the patterns
linked and looped together by the unions of a kneeling with a sceptred
love. Blessed be He!"
Ram Dass's story of the same vision, put very simply: "You're Not a Wave!"
"All that is made seems planless to the darkened mind,
because there are more plans than it looked for. In these seas there
are islands where the hairs of the turf are so fine and so closely
woven together that unless a man looked long at them he would see
neither hairs nor weaving at all, but only the same and the flat. So
with the Great Dance. Set your eyes on one movement and it will lead
you through all patterns and it will seem to you the master movement.
But the seeming will be true. Let no mouth open to gainsay it. There
seems no plan because it is all plan: there seems no centre because it
is all centre. Blessed be He!"
"Yet this seeming also is the end and final cause for which
He spreads out Time so long and Heaven so deep; lest if we never met
the dark, and the road that leads nowhither, and the question to which
no answer is imaginable, we should have in our minds no likeness of the
Abyss of the Father, into which if a creature drop down his thoughts
for ever he shall hear no echo return to him. Blessed, blessed, blessed
And now, by a transition which he did not notice, it seemed
that what had begun as speech was turned into sight, or into something
that can be remembered only as if it were seeing. He thought he saw the
Great Dance. It seemed to be woven out of the intertwining undulation
of many cords or bands of light, leaping over and under one another and
mutually embraced in arabesques and flower-like subtleties.
as he looked at it became the master-figure or focus of the whole
spectacle, by means of which his eye disentangled a1l else and brought
it into unity--only to be itself entangled when he looked to what he
had taken for mere marginal decorations and found that there also the
same hegemony was claimed, and the claim made good, yet the former
pattern not thereby dispossessed but finding in its new subordination a
significance greater than that which it had abdicated. He could see
also (but the word "seeing" is now plainly inadequate) wherever the
ribbons or serpents of light intersected, minute corpuscles of
momentary brightness: and he knew somehow that these particles were the
secular generalities of which history tells--peoples, institutions,
climates of opinion, civilisations, arts, sciences, and the
like--ephemeral coruscations that piped their short song and vanished.
The ribbons or cords themselves, in which millions of corpuscles lived
and died, were things of some different kind. At first he could not say
what. But he knew in the end that most of them were individual
entities. If so, the time in which the Great Dance proceeds is very
unlike time as we know it.
Some of the thinner and more delicate cords
were beings that we call short-lived: flowers and insects, a fruit or a
storm of rain, and once (he thought) a wave of the sea. Others were
such things as we also think lasting: crystals, rivers, mountains, or
even stars. Far above these in girth and luminosity and flashing with
colours from beyond our spectrum were the lines of the personal beings,
yet as different from one another in splendour as all of them from the
previous class. But not all the cords were individuals: some were
universal truths or universal qualities. It did not surprise him then
to find that these and the persons were both cords and both stood
together as against the mere atoms of generality which lived and died
in the clashing of their streams: but afterwards, when he came back to
earth, he wondered.
And by now the thing must have passed together out
of the region of sight as we understand it. For he says that the whole
solid figure of these enamoured and inter-inanimated circlings was
suddenly revealed as the mere superficies of a far vaster pattern in
four dimensions, and that figure as the boundary of yet others in other
worlds: till suddenly as the movement grew yet swifter, the
interweaving yet more ecstatic, the relevance of all to all yet more
intense, as dimension was added to dimension and that part of him which
could reason and remember was dropped farther and farther behind that
part of him which saw, even then, at the very zenith of complexity,
complexity was eaten up and faded, as a thin white cloud fades into the
hard blue burning of the sky, and a simplicity beyond all
comprehension, ancient and young as spring, illimitable, pellucid, drew
him with cords of infinite desire into its own stillness. He went up
into such a quietness, a privacy, and a freshness that at the very
moment when he stood farthest from our ordinary mode of being he had
the sense of stripping off encumbrances and awaking from trance, and
coming to himself. With a gesture of relaxation he looked about him. .
. . (C.S. Lewis, Perelandra, pp. 218-219. Ed. note: I've added
a few paragraph breaks for readbility.)
Joseph Campbell's cogent explanation of the nature of religion.
A nice article about C.S.
(Jack) Lewis's life by James Townsend
Here's the same idea from a very different voice:
Consciousness expresses itself through creation. This world we live in
is the dance of the creator. Dancers come and go in the twinkling of an
eye but the dance lives on. On many an occasion, when I am dancing, I
have felt touched by something sacred. In those moments, I felt my
spirit soar and become one with everything that exists. I become the
stars and the moon. I become the lover and the beloved. I become the
victor and the vanquished. I become the master and the slave. I become
the singer and the song. I become the knower and the known. I keep on
dancing and then, it is the eternal dance of creation. The creator and
the creation merge into one wholeness of joy. I keep on dancing --
until there is only. . . the dance. --Michael Jackson