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Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III

Finding God


Gay Spirituality

GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness

Gay Perspective

GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe

Secret Matter

SECRET MATTER, a sci-fi novel with wonderful "aliens" with an Afterword by Mark Jordan

Getting Life

GETTING LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE:  A Fantastical Gay Romance set in two different time periods

The Fourth Quill

THE FOURTH QUILL, a novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil

Two Spirits
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams

charmed lives
CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into Gold: GaySpirit in Storytelling, a collaboration with Steve Berman and some 30 other writers

Myth of the Great Secret

THE MYTH OF THE GREAT SECRET: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell

In Search of God


Unpublished manuscripts

About ordering

Books on Gay Spirituality:

White Crane Gay Spirituality Series

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  Articles and Excerpts:

Review of Samuel Avery's The Dimensional Structure of Consciousness

Funny Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San Francisco"

About Liberty Books, the Lesbian/Gay Bookstore for Austin, 1986-1996 with a list of topics in Austin LGBT History

The Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate

A Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality

Why gay people should NOT Marry

The Scriptural Basis for Same Sex Marriage

Toby and Kip Get Married

Wedding Cake Liberation

Gay Marriage in Texas

What's ironic

Shame on the American People

The "highest form of love"

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Gay Consciousness

Why homosexuality is a sin

The cause of homosexuality

The origins of homophobia

Advice to Future Gay Historians

Q&A about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness

What is homosexuality?

What is Gay Spirituality?

My three messages

What is Gay Perspective?

What Jesus said about Gay Rights

Myths, Salvation and the Great Secret with Rich Grzesiak

Queering religion

Common Experiences Unique to Gay Men

Is there a "uniquely gay perspective"?

The purpose of homosexuality

Interview on the Nature of Homosexuality

What the Bible Says about Homosexuality

Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men

Varieties of Gay Spirituality

Waves of Gay Liberation Activity

The Gay Succession

Wouldn’t You Like to Be Uranian?

The Reincarnation of Edward Carpenter

Queer men, myths and Reincarnation

Was I (or you) at Stonewall?

Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality as Artistic Medium

Easton Mountain Retreat Center

Andrew Harvey & Spiritual Activism

The Mysticism of Andrew Harvey

The upsidedown book on MSNBC

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"It's Always About You"

The myth of the Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara

Joseph Campbell's description of Avalokiteshvara

The Nature of Suffering and The Four Quills

You're Not A Wave

Joseph Campbell Talks about Aging

Toby's Experience of Zen

What is Enlightenment?

What is reincarnation?

What happens at Death?

How many lifetimes in an ego?

Emptiness & Religious Ideas

Experiencing experiencing experiencing

Going into the Light

Meditations for a Funeral

Meditation Practice

The way to get to heaven

Buddha's father was right

What Anatman means

Advice to Travelers to India & Nepal

The Danda Nata & goddess Kalika

A Funny Story: The Rug Salesmen of Istanbul

Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva

John Boswell was Immanuel Kant

Cutting edge realization

The Myth of the Wanderer

Change: Source of Suffering & of Bliss

World Navel

What the Vows Really Mean

Manifesting from the Subtle Realms

The Three-layer Cake & the Multiverse

The est Training and Personal Intention

Effective Dreaming in Ursula LeGuin's The Lathe of Heaven

Drawing a Long Straw: Ketamine at the Mann Ranch

Alan Watts & Multiple Solipsism

How I Learned Chakra Meditation

Je ne Regrette Rien

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Gay Spirituality

Curious Bodies

What Toby Johnson Believes

The Joseph Campbell Connection

The Mann Ranch (& Rich Gabrielson)

Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy

The Two Loves

The Nature of Religion

What's true about Religion

Being Gay is a Blessing

Drawing Long Straws

Freedom of Religion

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The Gay Agenda

Gay Saintliness

Gay Spiritual Functions

The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.

The Sinfulness of Homosexuality

Proposal for a study of gay nondualism

Priestly Sexuality

Having a Church to Leave

Harold Cole on Beauty

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Marian Doctrines: Immaculate Conception & Assumption

Not lashed to the prayer-post

Monastic or Chaste Homosexuality

The Monastic Schedule: a whimsy

Is It Time to Grow Up? Confronting the Aging Process

Notes on Licking  (July, 1984)

Redeem Orlando

Gay Consciousness changing the world by Shokti LoveStar

Alexander Renault interviews Toby Johnson

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Mystical Vision

"The Evolution of Gay Identity"

"St. John of the Cross & the Dark Night of the Soul."

Avalokiteshvara at the Baths

 Eckhart's Eye

Let Me Tell You a Secret

Religious Articulations of the Secret

The Collective Unconscious

Driving as Spiritual Practice


Historicity as Myth


No Stealing

Next Step in Evolution

The New Myth

The Moulting of the Holy Ghost

Gaia is a Bodhisattva

Sex with God

Merging Religion and Sex

Revolution Through Consciousness Change: GSV 2019

God as Metaphor

More Metaphors for God

A non-personal metaphor God

Jesus and the Wedding Feast

Tonglen in the Radisson Varanasi

The Closet of Horrors

What is Truth?

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The Hero's Journey

The Hero's Journey as archetype -- GSV 2016

The  Gay Hero Journey (shortened)

You're On Your Own


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Seeing Differently

Teenage Prostitution and the Nature of Evil

Allah Hu: "God is present here"

Adam and Steve

The Life is in the Blood

Gay retirement and the "freelance monastery"

Seeing with Different Eyes

Facing the Edge: AIDS as an occasion for spiritual wisdom

What are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?

A Different Take on Leathersex

Seeing Pornography Differently

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The Vision

The mystical experience at the Servites'  Castle in Riverside

A  Most Remarkable Synchronicity in Riverside

The Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis

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The Techniques Of The World Saviors

Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the Tar-Baby

Part 2: The Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara

Part 3: Jesus and the Resurrection

Part 4: A Course in Miracles

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The Secret of the Clear Light

Understanding the Clear Light

Mobius Strip

Finding Your Tiger Face

How Gay Souls Get Reincarnated

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Joseph Campbell, the Hero's Journey, and the modern Gay Hero-- a five part presentation on YouTube

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About Alien Abduction

In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke

Karellen was a homosexual

The D.A.F.O.D.I.L. Alliance

Intersections with the movie When We Rise

More about Gay Mental Health

Psych Tech Training

Toby at the California Institute

The Rainbow Flag

Ideas for gay mythic stories

My first Peace March

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Kip and Toby, Activists

Toby's friend and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.

Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement

About Hay and The New Myth

About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first man to really "come out"

About Michael Talbot, gay mystic

About Fr. Bernard Lynch

About Richard Baltzell

About Guy Mannheimer

About David Weyrauch

About Dennis Paddie

About Ask the Fire

About Arthur Evans

About Christopher Larkin

About Mark Thompson

About Sterling Houston

About Michael Stevens

The Alamo Business Council

Our friend Tom Nash

Our friend Cliff Douglas

Second March on Washington

The Gay Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and the "Statement of Spirituality"

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Book Reviews

Be Done on Earth by Howard E. Cook

Pay Me What I'm Worth by Souldancer

The Way Out by Christopher L  Nutter

The Gay Disciple by John Henson

Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry

Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth A. Burr

Extinguishing the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois

Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson

Dark Knowledge by Kenneth Low

Janet Planet by Eleanor Lerman

The Kairos by Paul E. Hartman

Wrestling with Jesus by D.K.Maylor

Kali Rising by Rudolph Ballentine

The Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada

The Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook

The Scar Letters: A Novel by Richard Alther

The Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel

Missing Mary by Charlene Spretnak

Gay Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez

Cut Hand: A Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr

Radiomen by Eleanor Lerman

Nights at Rizzoli by Felice Picano

The Key to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo

The Door of the Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar

Occam’s Razor by David Duncan

Grace and Demion by Mel White

Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L. Rigoglioso

The Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery

The Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass

Love Together: Longtime Male Couples on Healthy Intimacy and Communication by Tim Clausen

War Between Materialism and Spiritual by Jean-Michel Bitar

The Serpent's Gift: Gnostic Reflections on the Study of Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal

Esalen: America and the Religion of No Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal

The Invitation to Love by Darren Pierre

Brain, Consciousness, and God: A Lonerganian Integration by Daniel A Helminiak

A Walk with Four Spiritual Guides by Andrew Harvey

Can Christians Be Saved? by Stephenson & Rhodes

The Lost Secrets of the Ancient Mystery Schools by Stephenson & Rhodes

Keys to Spiritual Being: Energy Meditation and Synchronization Exercises by Adrian Ravarour

In Walt We Trust by John Marsh

Solomon's Tantric Song by Rollan McCleary

A Special Illumination by Rollan McCleary

Aelred's Sin by Lawrence Scott

Fruit Basket by Payam Ghassemlou

Internal Landscapes by John Ollom

Princes & Pumpkins by David Hatfield Sparks

Yes by Brad Boney

Blood of the Goddess by William Schindler

Roads of Excess, Palaces of Wisdom by Jeffrey Kripal

Evolving Dharma by Jay Michaelson

Jesus in Salome's Lot by Brett W. Gillette

The Man Who Loved Birds by Fenton Johnson

The Vatican Murders by Lucien Gregoire

"Sex Camp" by Brian McNaught

Out & About with Brewer & Berg
Episode One: Searching for a New Mythology

The Soul Beneath the Skin by David Nimmons

Out on Holy Ground by Donald Boisvert

The Revotutionary Psychology of Gay-Centeredness by Mitch Walker

Out There by Perry Brass

The Crucifixion of Hyacinth by Geoff Puterbaugh

The Silence of Sodom by Mark D Jordan

It's Never About What It's About by Krandall Kraus and Paul Borja

ReCreations, edited by Catherine Lake

Gospel: A Novel by WIlton Barnhard

Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey by Fenton Johnson

Dating the Greek Gods by Brad Gooch

Telling Truths in Church by Mark D. Jordan

The Substance of God by Perry Brass

The Tomcat Chronicles by Jack Nichols

10 Smart Things Gay Men Can Do to Improve Their Lives by Joe Kort

Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same Sex Love by Will Roscoe

The Third Appearance by Walter Starcke

The Last Hours of Ancient Sunlight by Thom Hartmann

Surviving and Thriving After a Life-Threatening Diagnosis by Bev Hall

Men, Homosexuality, and the Gods by Ronald Long

An Interview with Ron Long

Queering Creole Spiritual Traditons by Randy Conner & David Sparks

An Interview with Randy Conner

Pain, Sex and Time by Gerald Heard

Sex and the Sacred by Daniel Helminiak

Blessing Same-Sex Unions by Mark Jordan

Rising Up by Joe Perez

Soulfully Gay by Joe Perez

That Undeniable Longing by Mark Tedesco

Vintage: A Ghost Story by Steve Berman

Wisdom for the Soul by Larry Chang

MM4M a DVD by Bruce Grether

Double Cross by David Ranan

The Transcended Christian by Daniel Helminiak

Jesus in Love by Kittredge Cherry

In the Eye of the Storm by Gene Robinson

The Starry Dynamo by Sven Davisson

Life in Paradox by Fr Paul Murray

Spirituality for Our Global Community by Daniel Helminiak

Gay & Healthy in a Sick Society by Robert A. Minor

Coming Out: Irish Gay Experiences by Glen O'Brien

Queering Christ by Robert Goss

Skipping Towards Gomorrah by Dan Savage

The Flesh of the Word by Richard A Rosato

Catland by David Garrett Izzo

Tantra for Gay Men by Bruce Anderson

Yoga & the Path of the Urban Mystic by Darren Main

Simple Grace by Malcolm Boyd

Seventy Times Seven by Salvatore Sapienza

What Does "Queer" Mean Anyway? by Chris Bartlett

Critique of Patriarchal Reasoning by Arthur Evans

Gift of the Soul by Dale Colclasure & David Jensen

Legend of the Raibow Warriors by Steven McFadden

The Liar's Prayer by Gregory Flood

Lovely are the Messengers by Daniel Plasman

The Human Core of Spirituality by Daniel Helminiak

3001: The Final Odyssey by Arthur C. Clarke

Religion and the Human Sciences by Daniel Helminiak

Only the Good Parts by Daniel Curzon

Four Short Reviews of Books with a Message

Life Interrupted by Michael Parise

Confessions of a Murdered Pope by Lucien Gregoire

The Stargazer's Embassy by Eleanor Lerman

Conscious Living, Conscious Aging by Ron Pevny

Footprints Through the Desert by Joshua Kauffman

True Religion by J.L. Weinberg

The Mediterranean Universe by John Newmeyer

Everything is God by Jay Michaelson

Reflection by Dennis Merritt

Everywhere Home by Fenton Johnson

Hard Lesson by James Gaston

God vs Gay? by Jay Michaelson

The Gate of Tears: Sadness and the Spiritual Path by Jay Michaelson

Roxie & Fred by Richard Alther

Not the Son He Expected by Tim Clausen

The 9 Realities of Stardust by Bruce P. Grether

The Afterlife Revolution by Anne & Whitley Strieber

AIDS Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening by Shokti Lovestar

Facing the Truth of Your Life by Merle Yost

The Super Natural by Whitley Strieber & Jeffrey J Kripal

Secret Body by Jeffrey J Kripal

In Hitler's House by Jonathan Lane

Walking on Glory by Edward Swift

The Paradox of Porn by Don Shewey

Is Heaven for Real? by Lucien Gregoire

In Search of Lost Lives by Michael Goddart

Queer Magic by Tomas Prower

God in Your Body by Jay Michaelson

Science Whispering Spirit by Gary Preuss

Friends of Dorothy by Dee Michel

New by Whitley Strieber

Developing Supersensible Perception by Shelli Renee Joye

Sage Sapien by Johnson Chong

Tarot of the Future by Arthur Rosengarten

Brothers Across Time by Brad Boney

Impresario of Castro Street by Marc Huestis

Deathless by Andrew Ramer

The Pagan Heart of the West, Vol 1 by Randy P. Conner

Practical Tantra by William Schindler

The Flip by Jeffrey J. Kripal

A New World by Whitley Strieber

Bernhard & LightWing by Damien Rowse

The Mountains of Paris by David Oates

Trust Truth by Trudie Barreras

How to be an Excellent Human Being by Bill Meacham

The Deviant's War by Eric Cervini

What Is the Grass by Mark Doty

Sex with God by Suzanne DeWitt Hall

The Sum of All the Pieces by Paul Bradford

All the Time in the World by J. Lee Graham

Jonas and the Mountain by Janis Harper

Two Hearts Dancing by Eli Andrew Ramer

Where's My Pizza? by Larry Armstead II

A New Now by Michael Goddart

Scissors, Paper, Rock by Fenton Johnson

Toby Johnson's Books on Gay Men's Spiritualities:

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Gay Perspective

Things Our [Homo]sexuality
Tells Us about the
Nature of God and
the Universe

Gay Perspective audiobook
Gay Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Matthew Whitfield. Click here

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Gay Spirituality

Gay Identity and 
the Transformation of
Human Consciousness

Gay Spirituality   is now available as an audiobook, beautifully narrated by John Sipple. Click here

charmed lives
Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling

edited by
Toby Johnson
& Steve Berman

secret matter
Secret Matter

Lammy Award Winner for Gay Science Fiction


Getting Life
Getting Life in Perspective

A Fantastical Romance

Life in Perspective audiobook
Getting Life in Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Alex Beckham. Click here 

The Fourth Quill

The Fourth Quill

originally published as PLAGUE

The Fourth Quill is available as an audiobook, narrated by Jimmie Moreland. Click here

Two Spirits: A Story of Life with the Navajo

with Walter L. Williams

Two Spirits
audiobookTwo Spirits  is available as an audiobook  narrated by Arthur Raymond. Click here

Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III
Finding Your Own True Myth: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell

The Myth of the Great Secret III

Search of God in the Sexual Underworld
In Search of God  in the Sexual Underworld

Finding God
Finding God In The Sexual Underworld: The Journey Expanded

2020 Revised Version

The Myth of the Great Secret II

The Myth of the Great Secret: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell.

This was the second edition of this book.

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Toby Johnson's titles are available in other ebook formats from Smashwords.

Why I feel a certain loyalty to the G&L Review

Sons of Harvard

Sons of Harvard

Gay Men from the Class of 1967

by Toby Marotta

 William Morrow & Company; 1st edition (January 1, 1982)

ISBN:  978-0688010201

Available used from Amazon

Sons of Harvard

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Read about Toby Marotta's The Politics of Homosexuality

For the Gay & Lesbian Review "My Story" project

Why I feel a certain loyalty to the Gay and Lesbian Review/Worldwide

by Toby Johnson

I feel a personal loyalty to the G&L Review. I’d like to share a bit of history that I’ve been witness to.

Remember, the Review was originally titled The Harvard Gay & Lesbian Review. My connection to Harvard was through my literary collaborator, friend, and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.


For his 1977 undergraduate class reunion at Harvard, Toby Marotta came out in the 10-year class notes called the Red Book. He was the first gay man to do so.  And he revealed that he and his lifelong partner Rustam Kothavala, who’d been the SRO-popular professor and counterculture leader in the 70s at Harvard, had run off to San Francisco together.

At the time, Toby and Rusty were living in the East Bay; Toby was completing his dissertation on the homosexual rights movement, tracing three waves of organizing: homophile, gay, and lesbian feminist with a major focus on Stonewall, GLF and GAA. And he was working for Hospitality House, a social service agency in San Francisco’s Tenderloin District, surveying similar agencies in the neighborhood. He was naturally interested in identifying gay services.

I was working in such a service, a community mental health clinic around the corner from Hospitality House. The Tenderloin Clinic—which had developed out of a telephone hotline which I’d volunteered in some six years earlier as my entry into gay activism—had a special mandate to see gay and lesbian clients from all over the City to offer coming-out help and gay-positive psychotherapy. Having done an internship there in Counseling Psychology, I was now a staff therapist.

I happened to be on intake the day Toby Marotta came to visit the clinic so met him in the waiting room. We hit it off immediately, if only because we shared the same little-boy nickname. We talked at the clinic, then went out for a beer after closing time. We ran into John DeCecco (founding editor of The Journal of Homosexuality) in a bar on Market Street. As I would discover, Toby knew everybody. I learned he was writing his dissertation about the gay movement and said I’d like to see it. In fact, he asked, would you proofread it for me. I jumped at the chance to help him perfect the manuscript.

Toby’s next step was to seek publication. I was just finishing my own dissertation for a degree from the California Institute of Integral Studies. I too had a book. We made a sort of pact to help each other get published: Toby and Toby. Through Toby’s college connections, we got THE hotshot New York literary agent at the time, John Brockman. We succeeded with two books for him and two for me, and we worked together in a federally-funded study of gay teenage hustlers and runaway youth.

Toby’s dissertation was published as The Politics of Homosexuality (Houghton-Mifflin, 1981). Of course, since the 70s, there’ve been several more waves of LGBTQ organizing, but Marotta’s analysis of conflicting themes, priorities, and agendas among the activists is still salient. Some of those same dynamics are going on today, just with different names (and alphabetical designations).

After the Red Book came out, old friends and a number of also now-openly-gay men, though he hadn’t known them in school, contacted Toby to thank him. That became the idea for another book. The lives of these classmates demonstrated the success of the movement which the first book had been about. For a while the working title of the dissertation had been The Explosion of Things Gay. It was that explosion that allowed these men to be successful and happy as openly gay. Toby visited a dozen or so around the country and conducted taped interviews.

Toby & Toby We listened to the interviews together and selected sections to include. I have a wonderful memory of the two of us, sitting in the sun shirtless in the backyard of Toby and Rusty’s Oakland bungalow, listening intently and making notes. I transcribed the selections and rewrote them into readable prose and Toby wrote a narrative framing the stories. The result was Sons of Harvard: Gay Men from the Class of 1967. It was published by HarperCollins in 1982.

Starting with the Red Book coming out, a group of Harvard graduates gathered around Toby and Rusty and formed a gay alumni club called Sons of Harvard. I attended a few parties, but I wasn’t a Harvard grad and didn’t belong to the club. So I didn’t know much about the organizing or connections with other cities. But then after a few years, in 1984 the Harvard Gay and Lesbian Caucus formed within the Harvard Alumni Association.

According to the current Gender and Sexuality Caucus website: “Starting in the late ’70s, self-styled gay and lesbian alumni/ae groups were formed in San Francisco (Sons of Harvard), Boston (Lesbian Alumnae of Radcliffe College, Harvard University Gays), New York City, and Washington, D.C. With information-sharing facilitated by the new ‘Gay Harvard Alumni Newsletter,’ they provided increasing visible support for the gay and lesbian student groups that had been struggling to establish themselves on campus since 1970.” A little further down in the chronology it says: “In 1994, the Caucus launched The Harvard Gay & Lesbian Review (now known as the Gay & Lesbian Review / Worldwide), a bi-monthly review of literature and ideas.” The Harvard association got dropped with the updated name. The Review is not a publication of Harvard University but of gay community entrepreneurship.

But so I think the gay alumni caucus in Boston with the newsletter that evolved into the G&L Review was indirectly a result of Toby Marotta’s book.

However tortuous—and questionably causal—the chain-of-events, it seems like the little gossipy project Toby and I worked on in that Oakland backyard in the late 70s eventuated in Richard Schneider and Stephen Hemrick’s taking on the mantle of the Review and creating a modern American gay intelligentsia culture. I’m happy to have been a minor participant.

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Toby Marotta wrote about his life and about Sons of Harvard for Library Thing and

[Sons of Harvard] personifies and illustrates the "counter-cultural" and predominantly "leftist" wave of social and political change that was produced largely by college-aged men and women of my Sixties generation who had opted to embrace self-styled-and-declared gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender lifestyles after the Stonewall Riots of June, 1969. 

Its text splices my first-person accounts of what I did in order to meet and interview these GLBT ground-breakers with excerpts from the taped and transcribed interviews I obtained from the dozen or so Harvard College classmates who had agreed to let me tape-record them describing what they had found it to be like to begin self-identifying and living as a "liberated" gay or bisexual man. To locate and recruit helpful interviewees I sent a request for willing informants to as many of the 1200 members of my college class listed as being alive by Harvard University's sizable and efficient alumni office.

The fact that my resulting interviews took place just before the arrival of the deathly new epidemic of Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome, or AIDS, said to be spread via "unprotected" sexual promiscuity and hypodermic needle use for substance abuse, endowed my resulting narrative with an unusual degree of public-health utility and sub-cultural poignancy. Would the liberated lifestyles and communities we envisioned to survive?

How had I gotten to this point?  Back in 1965, Rusty was a hot-shot young professor of geology and the senior tutor of Lowell House at Harvard and I was an ambitious undergraduate wrestling with my homosexuality. Not until a few years later, when I was graduate student in Government and Education at the University and he was the precociously tenured professor of geology who had become first director of Harvard's new Science Center, did we become lovers who envisioned a long-term life together.  In order to make this leap together we had moved from Cambridge to avant-garde Berkeley, California.

Back when I was completing my graduate work in Cambridge I had persuaded Professor Nathan Glazer, whose views and books about American ethnic minorities had helped inspire me to view and to treat the flowering post-Stonewall GLBT community as comparable, to supervise the thesis I needed to write in order to fulfill the requirements for a Harvard Ph.D. in Government and Education.  Because I had completed my required course work in Cambridge, I was free to move to Berkeley, California, and write my thesis in absentia. 

To support myself financially I sought and got work as an ethnographer of AIDS-afflicted inner city populations working on projects funded by various National Institutes of Health and conducted in San Francisco.  Initially my job was to live with, converse with, study, and understand why sexually active men in big American cities were getting and spreading HIV infections and AIDS. En route I had managed to move from my job as a U.S. Department of Health and Human Services-funded field ethnographer in the Tenderloin, Polk Gulch, and finally Castro areas of San Francisco to an affiliate of one of the first San Francisco-based consulting groups funded by the federal government to develop and field-test educational outreach programs designed to stop the spread of HIV infections and AIDS.

Toby Marotta circa 1980In the San Francisco Bay Area I found myself in a good position to help the bold and proud GLBT community that was coalescing locally and in other big cities throughout the country and the world.  And I decided that one good way to do so -- a way to personify the themes of my book about the post-Stonewall efforts that launched worldwide efforts to produce GLBT liberation -- would be to produce a book of profiles that shared the personalities, lives, subcultures, and communities I had also come to associate with the dozen or so of my Harvard College classmates who agreed that it would be helpful and enlightening to to be interviewed for a book that would educate others about the liberated gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender lifestyles and communities that were now being embraced and publicized by so-called American Baby Boomers.

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Toby Johnson, PhD is author of nine books: three non-fiction books that apply the wisdom of his teacher and "wise old man," Joseph Campbell to modern-day social and religious problems, four gay genre novels that dramatize spiritual issues at the heart of gay identity, and two books on gay men's spiritualities and the mystical experience of homosexuality and editor of a collection of "myths" of gay men's consciousness. 

Johnson's book GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness won a Lambda Literary Award in 2000.

His  GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our [Homo]sexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe was nominated for a Lammy in 2003. They remain in print.

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III tells the story of Johnson's learning the real nature of religion and myth and discovering the spiritual qualities of gay male consciousness.

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