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Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III

Gay Spirituality

GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness

Gay Perspective

GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe

Secret Matter

SECRET MATTER, a sci-fi novel with wonderful "aliens" with an Afterword by Mark Jordan

Getting Life

GETTING LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE:  A Fantastical Gay Romance set in two different time periods

The Fourth Quill

THE FOURTH QUILL, a novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil

Two Spirits
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams

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CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into Gold: GaySpirit in Storytelling, a collaboration with Steve Berman and some 30 other writers

Myth of the Great Secret

THE MYTH OF THE GREAT SECRET: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell

In Search of God


Unpublished manuscripts

About ordering

Books on Gay Spirituality:

White Crane Gay Spirituality Series

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  Toby has done five podcasts with Harry Faddis for The Quest of Life

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  Articles and Excerpts:

Review of Samuel Avery's The Dimensional Structure of Consciousness

Funny Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San Francisco"

About Liberty Books, the Lesbian/Gay Bookstore for Austin, 1986-1996

The Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate

A Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality

Why gay people should NOT Marry

The Scriptural Basis for Same Sex Marriage

Toby and Kip Get Married

Wedding Cake Liberation

Gay Marriage in Texas

What's ironic

Shame on the American People

The "highest form of love"

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Gay Consciousness

Why homosexuality is a sin

The cause of homosexuality

The origins of homophobia

Q&A about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness

What is homosexuality?

What is Gay Spirituality?

My three messages

What Jesus said about Gay Rights

Queering religion

Common Experiences Unique to Gay Men

Is there a "uniquely gay perspective"?

The purpose of homosexuality

Interview on the Nature of Homosexuality

What the Bible Says about Homosexuality

Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men

Varieties of Gay Spirituality

Waves of Gay Liberation Activity

The Gay Succession

Wouldn’t You Like to Be Uranian?

The Reincarnation of Edward Carpenter

Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality as Artistic Medium

Easton Mountain Retreat Center

Andrew Harvey & Spiritual Activism

The Mysticism of Andrew Harvey

The upsidedown book on MSNBC

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"It's Always About You"

The myth of the Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara

Joseph Campbell's description of Avalokiteshvara

You're Not A Wave

Joseph Campbell Talks about Aging

What is Enlightenment?

What is reincarnation?

How many lifetimes in an ego?

Emptiness & Religious Ideas

Experiencing experiencing experiencing

Going into the Light

Meditations for a Funeral

Meditation Practice

The way to get to heaven

Buddha's father was right

What Anatman means

Advice to Travelers to India & Nepal

The Danda Nata & goddess Kalika

Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva

John Boswell was Immanuel Kant

Cutting edge realization

The Myth of the Wanderer

Change: Source of Suffering & of Bliss

World Navel

What the Vows Really Mean

Manifesting from the Subtle Realms

The Three-layer Cake & the Multiverse

The est Training and Personal Intention

Effective Dreaming in Ursula LeGuin's The Lathe of Heaven

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Gay Spirituality

Curious Bodies

What Toby Johnson Believes

The Joseph Campbell Connection

The Mann Ranch (& Rich Gabrielson)

Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy

The Two Loves

The Nature of Religion

What's true about Religion

Being Gay is a Blessing

Drawing Long Straws

Freedom of Religion

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The Gay Agenda

Gay Saintliness

Gay Spiritual Functions

The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.

The Sinfulness of Homosexuality

Proposal for a study of gay nondualism

Priestly Sexuality

Having a Church to Leave

Harold Cole on Beauty

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Marian Doctrines: Immaculate Conception & Assumption

Not lashed to the prayer-post

Monastic or Chaste Homosexuality

Is It Time to Grow Up? Confronting the Aging Process

Notes on Licking  (July, 1984)

Redeem Orlando

Gay Consciousness changing the world by Shokti LoveStar

Alexander Renault interviews Toby Johnson

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Mystical Vision

"The Evolution of Gay Identity"

"St. John of the Cross & the Dark Night of the Soul."

Avalokiteshvara at the Baths

 Eckhart's Eye

Let Me Tell You a Secret

Religious Articulations of the Secret

The Collective Unconscious

Driving as Spiritual Practice


Historicity as Myth


No Stealing

Next Step in Evolution

The New Myth

The Moulting of the Holy Ghost

Gaia is a Bodhisattva

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The Hero's Journey

The Hero's Journey as archetype -- GSV 2016

The  Gay Hero Journey (shortened)

You're On Your Own


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Seeing Differently

Teenage Prostitution and the Nature of Evil

Allah Hu: "God is present here"

Adam and Steve

The Life is in the Blood

Gay retirement and the "freelance monastery"

Seeing with Different Eyes

Facing the Edge: AIDS as an occasion for spiritual wisdom

What are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?

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The Vision

The mystical experience at the Servites'  Castle in Riverside

A  Most Remarkable Synchronicity in Riverside

The Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis

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The Techniques Of The World Saviors

Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the Tar-Baby

Part 2: The Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara

Part 3: Jesus and the Resurrection

Part 4: A Course in Miracles

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The Secret of the Clear Light

Understanding the Clear Light

Mobius Strip

Finding Your Tiger Face

How Gay Souls Get Reincarnated

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Joseph Campbell, the Hero's Journey, and the modern Gay Hero-- a five part presentation on YouTube

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About Alien Abduction

In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke

Karellen was a homosexual

The D.A.F.O.D.I.L. Alliance

Intersections with the movie When We Rise

More about Gay Mental Health

Psych Tech Training

Toby at the California Institute

The Rainbow Flag

Ideas for gay mythic stories

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Kip and Toby, Activists

Toby's friend and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.

Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement

About Hay and The New Myth

About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first man to really "come out"

About Michael Talbot, gay mystic

About Fr. Bernard Lynch

About Richard Baltzell

About Guy Mannheimer

About David Weyrauch

About Dennis Paddie

About Ask the Fire

About Arthur Evans

About Christopher Larkin

About Mark Thompson

About Sterling Houston

About Michael Stevens

The Alamo Business Council

Our friend Tom Nash

Second March on Washington

The Gay Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and the "Statement of Spirituality"

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Book Reviews

Be Done on Earth by Howard E. Cook

Pay Me What I'm Worth by Souldancer

The Way Out by Christopher L  Nutter

The Gay Disciple by John Henson

Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry

Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth A. Burr

Extinguishing the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois

Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson

Dark Knowledge by Kenneth Low

Janet Planet by Eleanor Lerman

The Kairos by Paul E. Hartman

Wrestling with Jesus by D.K.Maylor

Kali Rising by Rudolph Ballentine

The Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada

The Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook

The Scar Letters: A Novel by Richard Alther

The Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel

Missing Mary by Charlene Spretnak

Gay Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez

Cut Hand: A Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr

Radiomen by Eleanor Lerman

Nights at Rizzoli by Felice Picano

The Key to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo

The Door of the Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar

Occam’s Razor by David Duncan

Grace and Demion by Mel White

Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L. Rigoglioso

The Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery

The Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass

Love Together: Longtime Male Couples on Healthy Intimacy and Communication by Tim Clausen

War Between Materialism and Spiritual by Jean-Michel Bitar

The Serpent's Gift: Gnostic Reflections on the Study of Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal

Esalen: America and the Religion of No Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal

The Invitation to Love by Darren Pierre

Brain, Consciousness, and God: A Lonerganian Integration by Daniel A Helminiak

A Walk with Four Spiritual Guides by Andrew Harvey

Can Christians Be Saved? by Stephenson & Rhodes

The Lost Secrets of the Ancient Mystery Schools by Stephenson & Rhodes

Keys to Spiritual Being: Energy Meditation and Synchronization Exercises by Adrian Ravarour

In Walt We Trust by John Marsh

Solomon's Tantric Song by Rollan McCleary

A Special Illumination by Rollan McCleary

Aelred's Sin by Lawrence Scott

Fruit Basket by Payam Ghassemlou

Internal Landscapes by John Ollom

Princes & Pumpkins by David Hatfield Sparks

Yes by Brad Boney

Blood of the Goddess by William Schindler

Roads of Excess, Palaces of Wisdom by Jeffrey Kripal

Evolving Dharma by Jay Michaelson

Jesus in Salome's Lot by Brett W. Gillette

The Man Who Loved Birds by Fenton Johnson

The Vatican Murders by Lucien Gregoire

"Sex Camp" by Brian McNaught

Out & About with Brewer & Berg
Episode One: Searching for a New Mythology

The Soul Beneath the Skin by David Nimmons

Out on Holy Ground by Donald Boisvert

The Revotutionary Psychology of Gay-Centeredness by Mitch Walker

Out There by Perry Brass

The Crucifixion of Hyacinth by Geoff Puterbaugh

The Silence of Sodom by Mark D Jordan

It's Never About What It's About by Krandall Kraus and Paul Borja

ReCreations, edited by Catherine Lake

Gospel: A Novel by WIlton Barnhard

Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey by Fenton Johnson

Dating the Greek Gods
by Brad Gooch

Telling Truths in Church by Mark D. Jordan

The Substance of God by Perry Brass

The Tomcat Chronicles by Jack Nichols

10 Smart Things Gay Men Can Do to Improve Their Lives by Joe Kort

Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same Sex Love by Will Roscoe

The Third Appearance by Walter Starcke

The Last Hours of Ancient Sunlight by Thom Hartmann

Surviving and Thriving After a Life-Threatening Diagnosis by Bev Hall

Men, Homosexuality, and the Gods by Ronald Long

An Interview with Ron Long

Queering Creole Spiritual Traditons by Randy Conner & David Sparks

An Interview with Randy Conner

Pain, Sex and Time by Gerald Heard

Sex and the Sacred by Daniel Helminiak

Blessing Same-Sex Unions by Mark Jordan

Rising Up by Joe Perez

Soulfully Gay by Joe Perez

That Undeniable Longing by Mark Tedesco

Vintage: A Ghost Story by Steve Berman

Wisdom for the Soul by Larry Chang

MM4M a DVD by Bruce Grether

Double Cross by David Ranan

The Transcended Christian by Daniel Helminiak

Jesus in Love by Kittredge Cherry

In the Eye of the Storm by Gene Robinson

The Starry Dynamo by Sven Davisson

Life in Paradox by Fr Paul Murray

Spirituality for Our Global Community by Daniel Helminiak

Gay & Healthy in a Sick Society by Robert A. Minor

Coming Out: Irish Gay Experiences by Glen O'Brien

Queering Christ by Robert Goss

Skipping Towards Gomorrah by Dan Savage

The Flesh of the Word by Richard A Rosato

Catland by David Garrett Izzo

Tantra for Gay Men by Bruce Anderson

Yoga & the Path of the Urban Mystic by Darren Main

Simple Grace by Malcolm Boyd

Seventy Times Seven by Salvatore Sapienza

What Does "Queer" Mean Anyway? by Chris Bartlett

Critique of Patriarchal Reasoning by Arthur Evans

Gift of the Soul by Dale Colclasure & David Jensen

Legend of the Raibow Warriors by Steven McFadden

The Liar's Prayer by Gregory Flood

Lovely are the Messengers by Daniel Plasman

The Human Core of Spirituality by Daniel Helminiak

3001: The Final Odyssey by Arthur C. Clarke

Religion and the Human Sciences by Daniel Helminiak

Only the Good Parts by Daniel Curzon

Four Short Reviews of Books with a Message

Life Interrupted by Michael Parise

Confessions of a Murdered Pope by Lucien Gregoire

The Stargazer's Embassy by Eleanor Lerman

Conscious Living, Conscious Aging by Ron Pevny

Footprints Through the Desert by Joshua Kauffman

True Religion by J.L. Weinberg

The Mediterranean Universe by John Newmeyer

Everything is God by Jay Michaelson

Reflection by Dennis Merritt

Everywhere Home by Fenton Johnson

Hard Lesson by James Gaston

God vs Gay? by Jay Michaelson

The Gate of Tears: Sadness and the Spiritual Path by Jay Michaelson

Roxie & Fred by Richard Alther

Not the Son He Expected by Tim Clausen

The 9 Realities of Stardust by Bruce P. Grether

The Afterlife Revolution by Anne & Whitley Strieber

AIDS Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening by Shokti Lovestar

Facing the Truth of Your Life by Merle Yost

The Super Natural by Whitley Strieber & Jeffrey J Kripal

Secret Body by Jeffrey J Kripal

In Hitler's House by Jonathan Lane

Walking on Glory by Edward Swift

The Paradox of Porn by Don Shewey

Is Heaven for Real? by Lucien Gregoire

Enigma by Lloyd Meeker

Scissors, Paper, Rock by Fenton Johnson

Toby Johnson's Books on Gay Men's Spiritualities:

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Gay Perspective

Things Our [Homo]sexuality
Tells Us about the
Nature of God and
the Universe

Gay Perspective audiobook
Gay Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Matthew Whitfield. Click here

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Gay Spirituality

Gay Identity and 
the Transformation of
Human Consciousness

Gay Spirituality   is now available as an audiobook, beautifully narrated by John Sipple. Click here

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Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling

edited by
Toby Johnson
& Steve Berman

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Secret Matter

Lammy Award Winner for Gay Science Fiction


Getting Life
Getting Life in Perspective

A Fantastical Romance

Life in Perspective audiobook
Getting Life in Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Alex Beckham. Click here 

The Fourth Quill

The Fourth Quill

originally published as PLAGUE

The Fourth Quill is available as an audiobook, narrated by Jimmie Moreland. Click here

Two Spirits: A Story of Life with the Navajo

with Walter L. Williams

Two Spirits
audiobookTwo Spirits  is available as an audiobook  narrated by Arthur Raymond. Click here

Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III
Finding Your Own True Myth:
What I Learned from Joseph Campbell

The Myth of the Great Secret III

Search of God in the Sexual Underworld
In Search of God  in the Sexual Underworld

The Myth of the Great Secret II

The Myth of the Great Secret: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell.

This was the second edition of this book.

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Toby Johnson's titles are available in other ebook formats from Smashwords.

Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit In Storytelling (Spinning Straw into Gold)
An Anthology in White Crane Institute's Wisdom Series from Lethe Press

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ditors Toby Johnson, author of GAY SPIRITUALTY, and Steve Berman, writer and publisher of Lethe Press, have collected an anthology of  inspirational fiction with upbeat twists and turns  as well as autobiographical anecdotes and essays of  positive and life-fulfilling aspects of gay experience.

See Table of Contents

Links to purchase from, the author or Lethe Press Digital-on-Demand

Reviews and articles about CHARMED LIVES and contributors

In the interest of fair reporting, I'm
including the bad reviews here as well

White Crane Journal #73

Reviewed by Steven LaVigne

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(Original Cover with Toby & Kip's fingers drawing a long winning straw)

There are books that readers simply don’t want to come to an end, and former White Crane editor Toby Johnson and writer Steve Berman have edited one of them. Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling is so filled with gems (thirty-five passages by writers as diverse as Perry Brass, Mark Thompson, Malcolm Boyd, Jeffrey Beam, James Van Buskirk, Don Clark, Bert Herrman and Dave Nimmons, and White Crane columnist Andrew Ramer, to name but a few of them) that these stupendous tales of romance, music, sex, harassment and coping with the modern world equally make it a savory pleasure that’s tough to put down.

Among the highlights of this treasure trove: Mark Abramson explores his love for Ella Fitzgerald and how her particular style of jazz music helped him cope as friends succumbed to AIDS; Eric Andrews-Katz’ self-esteem is given a boost after meeting an attractive angel one night in a bar, while the leading character in Victor J. Banis falls in love with Douglas, the man who takes no notice of a face that resembles “The Canals of Mars.” J.R.G. De Marco’s ghost story, “Great Uncle Ned,” is the first passage that’s a topper, making the reader thinking nothing else can be better. Romantic and sexy, De Marco takes the reader on an exquisite gothic roller coaster ride.

Some of the stories are set pre-Stonewall, while others are post-AIDS, but every contribution, even reflections on why writers work the way they do, addressing topics from sex to marriage to everlasting love are outstanding in their own way.

Among the other “toppers” are Jay Michaelson’s “The Verse,” wherein any mention of the “sin” of homosexuality disappears from every copy of Biblical scripture, from the Torah to the Gospels, as the worldwide news coverage affects Michaelson’s characters. Should he be forgotten, Bill Blackburn’s lovely tribute “My Last Visits With Harry,” reminds us that Harry Hay, a founder of the Radical Faeries, was an exceptional pioneer for gay rights. Andrew Ramer imagines himself as Albert Gale, Dorothy’s brother, who doesn’t go over the rainbow, but, instead, finds true love on the prairie.

Personal experiences are a strong part of “Charmed Lives.” Don Clark, whose book, “Loving Someone Gay” was so helpful when I was first coming out, discusses his personal life, while David Nimmons relates how his program of Manifest Love began on a Fire Island dance floor. Johnson and Berman share experiences from their lives as well.

I hope that I’ve whetted our appetite and that you’ll take similar pleasures when reading “Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling,” which was a finalist for a 2007 Lambda Book Award. Even so, it’s a winner without awards.

January 17 2007, Out Front Colorado

ran an interview with Charmed Lives contributor Dan Stone by Jeboa Boreanaz
An inspirational new anthology from editor Toby Johnson aims to inspire with positive stories of gay men following their own spiritual paths. Local writer and life coach Dan Stone is one of the contributors to Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling.

Jeboa Boreanaz: Tell me about your story in Charmed Lives.

Dan Stone: I have an essay (called “This I Know”) that is really sort of
about my own personal transition fromDan Stone believing in an external authority to tell me how to approach my life from a spiritual perspective, such as the church or the bible. I was raised a fundamentalist minister’s son, so my own religious background was a pretty
strict conservative one, and that was true for a lot of us (in the anthology).

Then I moved towards more of what I would call the mystic path, where I’m relying less on external authority such as the bible or the church and more on my own experience and intuition and my own personal connection to god or the divine.

JB: So faith and spirituality have always played a big part in your life?

DS: It’s always been a really important aspect of my life. It was sort of pounded into me in some ways growing up, as involved in the church as I was for so many years.

I didn’t come out until I was about 30, and before that I was very
active in the church I was brought up in, which was a fundamentalist
Christian denomination. I taught Sunday school for years
and years, and I was in church three times a week, sang in the
choir and all that. Having some sort of active spiritual component
in my life has always been pretty important, because I kind of
inherited that from my family and my upbringing.

JB: And when you came out?

DS: When I came out and left the church and went out on my
own, I found that I still wanted to have it in my life in some way.
I didn’t know how to go about having it, but I still cared about
some kind of connection to something bigger than myself, so what I
started doing was just reading anything I could get my hands on regarding spirituality. Eastern philosophy. Pagan spirituality. All sorts of things that were very different from what I grew up with.

JB: What does ‘gay spirituality’ mean?

DS: One of the things you get a sense of when you read this book is
how incredibly diverse a community we are in this respect as well in all
others. We talk about the gay community and we like the idea of these
common bonds that we have, but when you really start to look at us you begin to realize how incredibly different we are in every way, and spirituality is no different. We come from all different places and perspectives and experiences. But one commonality I think is that we are all directly or indirectly trying to feel as good about ourselves as we can and trying to find someway to integrate our sexuality into who we are as people. For a lot of us, being gay was presented to us as a problem or an obstacle to being connected to god. It was unholy or unsacred and something that we either had to deny or push away. So now we can realize that being gay is as sacred a part of ourselves as anything else.

JB: What do you think readers will get from this book?

DS: Readers will take away a sense of the very diverse spiritual experience that is characteristic of our community, and they will see and hopefully understand that there are a wide range of possibilities as far as how these writers have learned about themselves and have moved within there own lives from a place of maybe some difficulty and struggle with their sexuality to a much more accepting and happy place. Hopefully the reader will be able to feel these writers feeling good about themselves, and that invites the reader to find ways to feel good about themselves as well. ■

BAR -- Bay Area Reporter, San Francisco

Published 02/15/2007

If the spirit moves you

by Jim Piechota

This impressive, skillfully assembled collection by Lambda Literary Award-winning author Toby Johnson and short-story writer Steve Berman contains over 30 uplifting spiritually-accessible essays, personal reflections, and fictional tales that will appeal to every sensibility within the GBLT spectrum. Derived from the White Crane Journal and published as part of their Wisdom Book Series, the book is meant to provide "insight, discernment and spiritual discovery" for gay people who are fortunate enough to have tapped into their mystical side, and also to "offer new stories, new ways of thinking about the gay experience."

Prolific San Francisco online blogger Mark Abramson leads off the compilation with "Ella, Kelly and Me," a wonderfully vivid, bittersweet, heartbreaking journal of a Castro Street bartender and his travails through the deep darkness and the subsequent radiance of San Francisco history. Abramson's combination of charm, engaging prose, and a working knowledge of local history will leave readers aching for more. His bio mentions a forthcoming novel series; like this story, they're set in the Castro District, a place where his garlanded prose seems to bloom best.

Fleeting scenes of first love and unfinished business decorate many of these stories, like Eric Andrews-Katz's sweet tale of two enamored boys; the mutual attraction discovered while waiting in line at the post office provided with great moxie by John McFarland; and Toby Johnson's stunning recollection of 1970s bathhouse culture, with a sage message resulting from a sex partner's harsh rejection: "A pang of loss struck me, but I understood the spiritual lesson to live in the present and not to be attached, to enjoy the joy I was feeling without trying to possess and hold onto it."

Death and coping with what remains loom large in stories like Michael Gouda's poignant "After Edward," much as living the "sweet life" does for Bryn Marlow in his essay "What Two Men Do in Bed," which, in the span of two pages, relates the splendor and the exuberance of a long-term relationship.

Other highlights include Jay Michaelson's clever story on the Jewish experience; a piece on the atrocious "carving" vandalism done to gay-themed novels and resource materials at the San Francisco Public Library; David Nimmons' affirmative actions and efforts to conquer cynicism in gay circles with his group "Manifest Love;" and the incredibly moving portrait of Lewis DeSimone's transformative work with Castro-area AIDS hospice Maitri.

Jeffrey Beam's beautiful commentary in "What Queer Spirit Sees" encourages all of us to look within our own hearts and souls for the divinity we may be seeking, as does Will Gray in his profound essay "Gay Spirituality." "I see no existence of a god, but that doesn't prevent me from sharing moments of transcendence and gratitude."

Collectively, the writers have produced a personally empowering, kaleidoscopic tapestry. This anthology can be kept on a shelf and referred to for a bit of inspiration on a particularly bad day, or as a resource that keeps the good karma flowing in balance with our everyday lives.

February 25, 2007 Reading & booksigning at the San Francisco Public Library

Authors in the S. F. Bay Area gathered for an event at the LIbrary, hosted by contributor Jim Van Buskirk.

HeS. F. Public Library Reading by Rinkre we are in a photo by S.F. photographer extraordinaire Rink

from left to right: Tyler Tone, Mark Abramson. Andrew Ramer,
Lewis DeSimone, Jim Van Buskirk, Toby Johnson, Don Clark, Jim Toevs, and Michael Sigmann

EDGE Entertainment Contributor
Tuesday Mar 13, 2007

by Lewis Whittington

Transcendence comes with the Queer territory," Jeffrey Beam breezily proclaims in his essay "What Queer Spirit Sees," and that spirit is joyously celebrated in the peck of short stories that comprise Charmed Lives. This collection of fiction and nonfiction would be fun to read either in the winter when hibernating away from the madding crowd, or in the summer on the beach with everybody chattering around you.

Many of the stories have a spiritual objective, but that doesn’t exclude gay carousing, cruising, canoodling, or, for that matter, issues of pain, suffering, or complex emotions. Gay spirit, both living and dead, tragic and comic inhabit this book.

Consider some of the 32 titles - "What Two Men Do In Bed," "Gay Spirituality?," "Tom or an Improbable Tail," "The Bells of St. Michael’s," "So What is Charm" - and you know this is not your average gay pulp fiction or a G-rated gay picnic either. These are intimate, exciting stories, carefully chosen by the editors - contributors Toby Johnson and Steve Berman, whose story "His Paper Doll," involving voodoo doll boi club hook-ups is club-caustic.

In Eric Andrews-Katz’s "An Angel on the Threshold," main character Mark is carrying a longtime torch for his ex-lover, and about giving up. To torture himself more, he goes to the club and itemizes his character flaws when he is hit on by Gabriel who, he thinks, is completely out of his league. The gorgeous Gabriel seems to be able to read his mind and emotions, so of course this makes Mark flee, since he’s not one to accept a mercy fuck. Mark’s reawakening comes to pass on the street, where his lovelorn phantoms meet bruised reality under the pen of Andrews-Katz.

Don Clark sets up his gay journey in "A Path of Mirrors" with the idea that "our spirit guides are not hidden from normal sight or cloaked in great mystery. It just may be that they are unrecognized at first sight."

The specter of the great Ella Fitzgerald comes alive in Mark Abramson’s "Ella, Kelly and Me," about a bartender in the Castro district who becomes an eternal Ella fan (like we all eventually do) and actually gets to speak to her on a hillside before she gives a concert. Later, her music proves to be sustaining in times of deep crisis.

"The Canals of Mars," by Victor J. Banis, is about a beautiful man whose face is scarred in an accident, and who goes into self-imposed exile because he thinks he’s too ugly to exist. He is invited to recover and rest at the seaside home of an acquaintance who falls in love with him. A Platonic discussion of what beauty is, and isn’t, is the backdrop for this touching story.

Sterling Houston’s "Beyond the Blue Bardo (Manhattan Island 1965)" reads like an aria and paints a portrait of being young, black, and proud in the day: "The black sissy has earned the right to strut, no lie," he writes, before he dances into transcendence with lines like, "Winds of disdain whip past her ears and get incorporated into the music, translate themselves into a sphincter thrust that has become the envy of the civilized world." That’s before we even get the backstory, summed up with, "I got my drama queen genes from Miss Lula" - the aunt who raised him. It is no surprise to read in the bios that Houston is a performer and theater director: even in his writing all the world is a grand stage.

"After Edward," by Michael Gouda, is about grief and reconciliation following a gay widower’s journey back to life in the months after his lover’s death. This is an anti-"Things happen for a reason" story that tells of real emotion and real experience, a story that ventures past platitudes and knowing formulas. Gouda’s narrator doesn’t hold back with friends who expect him to pull himself together: "How the fuck would YOU know what Edward would or wouldn’t have wanted me to do?" he fires back.

"Shades" by Bill Goodman pays a comic visit to a middle-aged gay couple entering their golden years. When one of them dies, the survivor sees his specter a la Dolly Levy through the actions of others.

Short interludes such as Bert Herrman’s "So What is the Charm?" asserts, "A charmed life is a life of faith, though not necessarily on of religious faith. What matters is authenticity." These intimate, thoughtful gay journeys of self-awareness are celebrations of our multi-faceted liberation.

Publisher: Lethe Press. Publication Date: November 15, 2006. Pages: 308. Price: $18. ISBN-13: 978-1590210161

Lewis Whittington writes about the performing arts and gay politics for several publications.

The Letter
March 2007

Rainbow of Thought

Accessible Spirituality
by Jason Brooks

The short stories and non-fiction personal essays collected in this Lambda Literary Award-nominated compilation offer encouragement and motivation for those who integrate spirituality into gay life, and insight for those who wonder about the distinction between spirituality and religion. As such, the book makes spirituality accessible to readers across the GLBT spectrum, though it most directly addresses gay men.

The book includes a mix of personal essays, thoughtful reflections and fictional short stories. In his introduction, co-editor Toby Johnson emphasizes the power of story and its pivotal role in shaping consciousness.

How we see ourselves and the stories we tell about our place in life really do have transforming power, he says. In his companion introduction, co-editor Steve Berman advocates a focus on the small golden moments of our lives: “life may not be fair, but it can still be enjoyed.”

That spirit of joy appears in What Two Men Do In Bed, non-fiction by local writer Bryn Marlow, one of two contributors from The Letter’s six-state distribution region. From his home in Indiana, Marlow pulls back the sheets on his own long-term gay relationship. What goes on under the covers at his house involves a depth of intimacy, humor and playfulness that adds sweet sparkle to the bond between two men.

Magic holds sway in another regional author’s contribution. Ruth Sims’ Tom Or An Improbable Tale tells about the day William comes home from work to find who looks like the incarnation of Apollo and Ganymede sitting on his sofa—stark naked. The adventure begins.

A more quiet venture though one no less magical spurs the plot in Victor Banis’ offering, The Canals of Mars. Its narrator experiences first hand the transforming power of acceptance and love to overcome issues of physical appearance and ageism.

In similar fashion, each of the stories in this collection enlarges upon aspects of the gay experience in heartfelt ways. Johnson and Berman have gathered contributions from over 30 writers who affirm the pleasures of physical passion while suggesting there is more to gay life than sex. This should come as no surprise to readers of White Crane, a periodical devoted to exploring spiritual consciousness among gay folk.

Here is a take on spirituality accessible to those who because of their sexual orientation have received poor treatment at the hands of organized religion. Here is spirituality expressed as concern for others, capacity for awe, and courage to tell the truth about one’s deepest self. Here is spirituality in story form, in essay and in thoughtful commentary—readable, approachable and enlightening.

While the fiction runs from romantic to historical, from supernatural to prosaic, themes of love, desire and attraction are near constants. Boy does not always get boy—or angel or devil or ghost or were creature, as the case may be. But the reader does get insight into the human condition and a glimpse of gay spirit operative in our desires.

Andrew Ramer spins the story, not of Dorothy and Toto, but of Dorothy’s gay brother Albert who finds his way to an Oz of his own making. Set in the Wild West, The True and Unknown Story of Albert Gale, Told by Himself rings with faint echoes of Tom Spanbauer’s The Man Who Fell in Love With the Moon.

The whole world echoes with the news that a passage in the Jewish Torah interpreted to condemn acts of gay love has disappeared, as imagined in Jay
Michaelson’s The Verse. The consequences are global, national and very, very local.

Mark Horn sets Musuko Dojoji in Japan, and incorporates one of that country’s oldest folk tales into a compelling story that blurs the boundaries between fact and fiction. Horn is forthright about this in his epilogue; would that the editors had been as forthcoming in alerting the reader as to which pieces are fiction, which not. Instead the reader is left to decide whether a story is based in fact or fiction. Maybe the editors’ point is that all stories contain truth. Nevertheless, enhanced clarity would aid the truth-telling process.

For example, halfway through Lewis DeSimone’s Left With Love, the reader may be unsure whether the events related actually happened or if the hospice patient may suddenly reveal himself to be a god of the ancient Greeks reincarnate. The man does die, however, and the hospice volunteer mourns his loss even as he opens himself to lessons of life and love. Must be meant as the touching piece of non-fiction it is.

No question about the intent of David Nimmons’ essay Manifest Love. He calls gay men to awareness, understanding and action, as does Bert Herrman in So What is the Charm? Both these authors pack their sentences with punch. Both challenge GLBT persons to use their differing sexual orientation to see the world with different eyes, build on their strengths, and act on what tugs at their hearts.

But let go of judgments, writers in this anthology advise. Expect no formulaic answers for finding truth. Rather, recognize that each person’s journey is individual and should be honored as such. Dan Stone’s “This I Know” succinctly relates one man’s disaffection with organized religion and subsequent realization that there are multiple paths to paradise, even as Will Gray’s Gay Spirituality? details how he as an atheist might be described as embodying spirituality.

Life offers opportunities to learn. Charmed Lives offers glimpses of spirituality in action, written in such a way as to be accessible to the average reader.

Readers will not find every piece in the compilation equally compelling. Some stories tend toward the cliche; some lack the finesse of polished writing. But with over 30 selections to choose from there is more than enough to incite and inspire.

In a market where many gay-themed anthologies offer little more than sex, sweat and sperm, this collection shines nearly as brightly as the straw-into-gold being spun on its cover photograph. Life offers sensual pleasure, yes, and much more. These pages serve notice that gay life can be hot and sweaty, sweet and romantic, touched by magic, tinged with sadness, punctuated with moments of deep love and ecstatic joy.

Authors’ work promotes positive gay fiction

By Larry Nichols

PGN Staff Writer
2007 Philadelphia Gay News
March 16, 2007

The authors and publishers of “Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling” — a new collection of gay short stories — want readers to know that there is more to the world of gay fiction than fantasy sex romps and gay strife.

“I became tired of reading gay fiction, especially short gay fiction, that was either all about sex or it was all about being depressed over being gay,” editor and author Steve Berman said.

Berman pitched the idea of an anthology of positive gay experiences — short fiction and personal essays presented as an alternative to the stories society tells about gay men — to award-winning gay novelist Toby Johnson.

“Toby has knowledge of spirituality and authors who believe in how you should be proud of being gay. I told Toby this is something I wanted to do and we agreed to work on it together.

“I didn’t want it just to be all fiction,” Berman added. “I thought it would be nice to have personal essays too. So it runs that gamut of inspiration fiction and essays for gay men.”

Johnson was intrigued and eager to participate when Berman approached him with the idea.

“Steve had suggested that one of the really successful books in the mainstream world was this series called ‘Chicken Soup for the Soul,’” Johnson said. “We figured gay writers ought to be able to do a better job of writing life-affirming, positive stories about the gay experience. But what happens so often is that writers tend to write about the traumatic stuff in their lives so a lot of the gay literature is about the suffering and bad things that can happen. We wanted to do something positive and share the good experiences — a gay ‘Chicken Soup for the Soul.’”

Johnson, with his experience and connections as a gay author and bookseller — he’s written eight novels and three nonfiction books — was instrumental in recruiting writers for the project.

“There are over 30 authors represented,” he said. “For years, I edited a magazine called ‘White Crane Journal of Gay Men’s Spirituality’ and through White Crane, I knew a lot of people in the gay spirituality movement and I used to run the gay and lesbian bookstore in Austin with my partner. So I’ve had contact with a lot of the authors in the gay genre.

“Over a six-month period, we got a lot of stories submitted and Steve and I culled through those and picked what we thought would make a good collection.”

The two met after Berman started his New Jersey-based company, Lethe Press. Berman wanted to reprint Johnson’s then out-of-print book “Gay Spirituality” and contacted him; Berman originally founded Lethe to use print-on-demand technology to keep gay classics available.

Johnson and Berman will read from and sign “Charmed Lives” at Giovanni’s Room, marking the first time the two will meet face to face.

“Steve and I have never met in person,” Johnson said. “This book signing at Giovanni’s Room is going to be our actual first meeting. Isn’t it interesting this modern world we live in, in which you can work with someone electronically and never really meet them?”

“We’ve talked many times on the phone and all that, but it’s kind of funny,” Berman said about finally meeting Johnson in person. “I’m looking forward to it.”

Johnson and Berman are appearing at 5:30 p.m. March 17 at Giovanni’s Room, 345 S. 12th St.; (215) 923-2960.

Lavender Magazine
Minneapolis, MN
Issue 305

By Ethan Boatner, Editor

Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling
Ed. by Toby Johnson and Steve Berman
Lethe Press

“Charmed” perfectly fits these 37 stories, not trivializing, but invoking “ensorcelled,” “bewitched.”

Old as mankind, storytelling is a way to entertain, educate, and make sense of the world.

As Mark Horn, author of “Musoko Dojoji,” explains, “Just because it didn’t happen, doesn’t mean it’s not true.”

Some pieces are memoirs of past lovers and events (though each individual sees an “actual” event differently), like Bill Blackburn’s “My Last Visits With Harry” [Hay], while some, like Jay Michaelson’s “The Verse,” are fantastic “what ifs.”

Suppose, Michaelson posits, one morning, people wake to discover that Leviticus 18:22 has vanished from every kosher Torah—not scratched out, erased, or removed. No spaces—just gone. What might be the reactions of Jews? Christians? Muslims? Not what you’d predict, it seems.

Nor, you will find, is the answer to Bryn Marlow’s charming “What Two Men Do in Bed.”

Midwest Book Review
June 2007

Lori L. Lake

Long-time spiritual writer Toby Johnson and publisher/writer Steve Berman have put together a much-needed collection of essays and stories about gay men and spirituality. So often, anti-gay activists go out of their way to malign gay people, and homophobes in mainstream churches often block gays from worship and religion. This collection offers an alternative to those small-minded persecutions.

What Johnson has been saying for years in books like GAY SPIRITUALITY and GAY PERSPECTIVE is that the spiritual consciousness expressed by gays—indeed, by all GLBTQ people—is a vital and evolutionary step forward for everyone on the planet. No longer need we be trapped in meaningless, dogmatic, fear-based, or male-dominated religious practices. There’s hope and inspiration to be found by, for, and about homosexual lives.

Berman and Johnson have managed to get stories and essays from many literary lights: Mark Thompson, Malcolm Boyd, Perry Brass, Victor J. Banis, Jeffery Beam, Mark Abramson, and many others. The inspiring work of educators, community activists, and religious experts such as David Nimmons, Mark Horn, Dan Stone, Michael Sigmann, Bill Blackburn, and Donald Boisvert are also featured.

CHARMED LIVES is a Lambda Literary Award Finalist in the category of Best Anthology, and it’s fully deserving. Every story, every essay is a gem that reveals the beauty, strength, and value of gay voices.

As Bert Herrman writes in his essay, “Grace is not really magic, it is a natural state of being, but for those who reach it, it works like a charm.” Reading these pieces will comfort, inspire, and charm anyone seeking to learn more about the wonder of gay spirit in storytelling. Highly recommended.

Wayves -- the queer newspaper for Atlantic Canada
June 2007

Ralph Higgins

Queer lives are tribal. Our strongest connections are often not with our biological family but rather with the gay men and women who found for themselves, and then offered to us, acceptance, sanctuary and community. Our characters have been tempered by the fires of adversity and our strength grows as we face hostility, ignorance and even death - when we face them together. The tribe provides a place where we belong, a sense that we are where we are supposed to be. Yet, because the tribe is relatively new the wisdom of the elders, the shared stories and experiences of our fellow tribe members is not widely known.

The telling of stories is essential and Toby Johnson and Steve Berman in Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling have compiled a collection of stories, poems, personal accounts and essays that show the fundamental connections that unite our experiences. Connections between lovers, between friends, between generations, between the teller of stories and the listener. And throughout all the tales it is the personalities of the characters that capture us, their spirit that enters into us, becomes part of our experience like shared memories just as the people - both real and imagined - become part of our family tree. They make us feel glad and proud to belong to the same tribe.

These stories are very moving. They will move you to laughter, to tears and move your heart to beat a little faster, stronger. These are stories about love - a basic human need, but one that we still have trouble accepting for ourselves, with all its joys, sorrows, and pleasures. With so few role models that show our queer reality, these stories are essential reading.

The contributors - too many to list here - are from a wide range of backgrounds and interests. There are stories flavoured with science fiction, with the old west, with supernatural spirits; and essays and musings reflecting different philosophies and religious leanings. Wild imaginings and the day to day routine all have a place in these pages. The focus is not on the obstacles and difficulties of gay life but on the fact that our lives are indeed charmed ones. Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling reminds us of the richness of our queer existence and how very lucky we are.

OutSmart, July 2007

Houston's gay, lesbian, bi, and trans magazine

Angel Curtis

Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling
Various writers
White Crane Books (

The stories we tell ourselves define who we were, who we are, and, most importantly, who we will be. This compelling anthology presents an alternative to the stories our culture tells about gay people. Part spiritual journey, part romance, but all alive, the stories in this book give us a new way of looking at both our spiritual and mortal selves. This one is not to be missed.

Here's the Table of Contents to tempt readers

Introduction: Straw into Gold     Toby Johnson     
Introduction: Straw is Neither Dross nor Gold  Steve Berman     

Ella, Kelly and Me…     Mark Abramson        

The Story Behind the Story     Perry Brass       

An Angel on the Threshold    Eric Andrews-Katz       

Shades    Bill Goodman       

The Canals of Mars    Victor J. Banis      

What Queer Spirit Sees    Jeffery Beam       

After Edward    Michael Gouda      

What Two Men Do In Bed    Bryn Marlow    

Great Uncle Ned    J.R.G. De Marco      

Beyond the Blue Bardo     Sterling Houston      

The Verse    Jay Michaelson     

My Last Visits With Harry     Bill Blackburn      

Reversing Vandalism      Jim Van Buskirk     

Grandfather’s Photograph     Neil Ellis Orts     

Gay Spirituality?     Will Gray    

“Charmed, I’m Sure”    Mark Thompson and Malcolm Boyd     

Viewing the Statue of David  Jim Toevs     

The True and Unknown Story of Albert Gale   Andrew Ramer     

Tom or An Improbable Tail   Ruth Sims     

Free Speech  Martin K. Smith     

This I Know  Dan Stone    

Musuko Dojoji   Mark Horn     

A Path of Mirrors   Don Clark      

Lines  John McFarland     

Left with Love   Lewis DeSimone     

Get Thee Behind Me  Christos Tsirbas     

His Paper Doll  Steve Berman

Desiring St. Sebastian  Donald L. Boisvert  

Manifest Love  David Nimmons

Avalokiteshvara at The 21st Street Baths  Toby Johnson      

Neighborhood Walk  Steven A. Hoffman     

My Pride and Joy  Tyler Tone    

The Bell of St. Michael’s  Gary Craig     

So What is the Charm?  Bert Herrman     

And, finally   Michael Sigmann     

The Authors     

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Toby Johnson, PhD is author of nine books: three non-fiction books that apply the wisdom of his teacher and "wise old man," Joseph Campbell to modern-day social and religious problems, four gay genre novels that dramatize spiritual issues at the heart of gay identity, and two books on gay men's spiritualities and the mystical experience of homosexuality and editor of a collection of "myths" of gay men's consciousness. 

Johnson's book GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness won a Lambda Literary Award in 2000.

His  GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our [Homo]sexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe was nominated for a Lammy in 2003. They remain in print.

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III tells the story of Johnson's learning the real nature of religion and myth and discovering the spiritual qualities of gay male consciousness.

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